I've been with him for 2 1/2 years, we had little missunderstandings here and there as everyone does but nothing to cause us to break up. We're almost at the end of our first year at uni (two different citys) but we always said we'd make it work and that we loved each other and he said he could see us being together until the end of uni (another 3yrs) at least and we went back and forth to each others almost every weekend and we had a great time and we were really happy, we made each other happy.
He was due to come over on Wed 19th, I'd been upset cos my flatmates are orrible to me, so he said he was going to come and make it better. Give me cuddles and we'd curl up together and watch a film. He kept saying how excited he was and he couldnt wait to see me. Wednesday came, i met him off the bus he gave me a kiss and told me he loved me and had missed me like normal, we held hands on the way back to mine like normal, we made dinner together and then he sat silently. He looked realy down. Trying to make him laugh i joked "are u trying to work out a way to break up with me or something" and he said "yeh"
I burst into floods of tears, i was hysterical, we were fine, we were happy, there was nothing wrong with our relationship. he paced around the room really angry and frustrated with himself, he said he didnt know who he was by himself, he needed to be by himself. and I said "so u never wana c me again" and he looked upset and said "i thought we could be friends cos i dont realy know what i want" and i was like "look me in the eyes and tell me you dont love me" and he looked at me and said, he didnt know. I was histerical, i tried to talk to him, to hug him, and he pushed me off. I told him to kiss me and tell me there was nothing, he kissed me, and he said that it just made it harder. he put his shoes on to leave and go home. I cut, and i begged him to stay with me cos i was frieghted of what id do.
He stayed, he put his arm round me, and he patched up my cut. we sat and we chatted till 4am, i tried to get him to laugh and see how great we are together, talk about all the stuff we still had to do together, and he really liked it, he said it made it harder, i know theres no1 else, but he says he needs space, i've never seen him like this before.
we eventually went to bed and i said, do you want to sleep on the floor or share a bed with me? and he shared my bed, and i slept on his chest all night with his arm around me. In the morning i cried and asked if i could take a pic of us lyk that incase it was the last time we did it. he let me, and i printed some out to take with him. he had to leave to go back for classes, i asked him to kiss me and hugged me, he squeezed me tight, and we kissed 2 or 3 times, and i burst into tears as he walked out the door.
He was supposed to run for his bus cos hed left it till the last minute cos he didnt want to leave, but i watched him doddle and kick things as he was looking up at me.
I txtd him to make sure he got the bus, he was really cold with me but he said he didnt mean to be but it hurt wen he said "its my descision, we're not together anymore"
I phoned him the other day, he said it was good to hear my voice and that part of him missed me and the other part wanted to be on his own. He wanted me to give him space. I said i wouldnt contact him all this week, and i arranged to visit him on the 31st. im so scared he wont take me back.
Im looking at old cards etc and they say things like "thank you for another great year together, we've done some memorable things. 2008 is going to be another great year and i cant wait to spend it with you, love you lots" and txts from just a day or two before wed "i just want to talk to you so we can both feel happy with each other, it wont b a bad thing, everything will b gd again xxx" "i miss you so much, 1 more night, i cant wait"
now i've just been cut out of a happy relationship & i dnt understand.
Theres no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb.
"They dont have meetings about rainbows..."
"How will you know I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain,
to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain" C.Blout
I know it's hard right now for you, but give him the space, let him sort out whatever he needs to sort out in his head.
If you're meant to be, it'll work out.
Take care, i'm sorry i can't say anything to help
x
It's so easy to get lost in constantly having to present
whatever face you believe a person wants to see rather than your own
I'm so sorry sweetheart.
Maybe once he's had abit of space he'll be able to explain properly?
I wish I could be of more use but I really dont know what to say..
Stay strong..
you can get through this
Take Care and feel free to PM me anytime
Alexx
xxx
Heya. Nothing really to say but i was sorta in a way in that situation last month so im here if you want to chat. but give him his space because even though he has split with you he will still have feelings for you
He will probably want to work out what to do next weather he is at the right age to have a serious relationship, weather it was going to go anywhere, just that kinda stuff really
I know how hard it is when you spend the last night asleep in their arms then wake up and rememebr your not together thats what hurt me the most. Sorry im rambling on but i have been in that situation recently so try and distract yourself with other stuff like uni work and such as much as you can. Sorry im rubbish on advice also... Pm if you need to chat
Shel x
♥ If you don't like how things are, change it. You are not a tree! ♥
thanx its just so hard and so confusing, cos he says its nothing i've done, its him thats confuzed. but we were so happy, and this is so sudden. Id we'd had problems then i could understand, but i just cant cope without having him to talk to or help me with stuff or just generaly spend time with. i love him so much and hes just cut me out.
Theres no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb.
"They dont have meetings about rainbows..."
"How will you know I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain,
to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain" C.Blout
Honey, I'd give him time. If he wanted to end it, he would have ended it then and there, he wouldn't have carried on "normal" - or close to it at least. Don't think the worst before it's happened. Maybe he's having a hard time at his uni, or with his friends, or whatever. The thing that would be best is not to act desperate and needy. Just be friendly, maybe text him in a few days asking how he is, what hes been up to. If he starts being cold with you again, lay off for a while. Try not to push things, because that type of thing can sometimes push people away unintentionally. Until your next visit, don't panic, don't think the worst, and try and get on with what you have to do. If he does end things with you, which i sincerely hope he doesn't, don't deem it as the end of the world. There are plently of other people out there, and although it may not seem like it at the time, you'll find someone who loves you just the same, or more, and you'll love them back. Until any of that, chin up, keep your head up high, smile and believe in the best. Take care. Keep me posted on what happens. xxxxxxxxx
thank u, i think wen i next visit, im just gona have to luk real hot, lol and just be friends, and act lyk it hasnt phased me, and try and b the hapy person he fell in love with, and not push him or be needy
Theres no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb.
"They dont have meetings about rainbows..."
"How will you know I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain,
to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain" C.Blout
i just really want him back, i dont know how to be around him wen i see him, im so nervous. 5days to go until i see him. normally he wud hug me and kiss me wen i get off the bus, itd b weird if he doesnt, but i wont push him. do u think after 2 1/2 yrs of happiness that mayb he cud just be confuzed or scared that hes having strong feelings or something? do u think after that that he couldnt miss me?
Theres no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb.
"They dont have meetings about rainbows..."
"How will you know I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain,
to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain" C.Blout
Oh, from experience i think there will still be part of him that misses you and loves you, and also a part of him that wants you. but on the other hand there will also be a part of him that doesnt want to be with you. I dont know how old you are but maybe he isnt really ready for such a serious relationship.
I know how hard it is too deal with it when it just suddenly comes but just take it one day at a time, there will always be a part of you that needs him there, simply just to talk to or just be there to hold you.
And as for when you next see him just be yourself, dont try to be who you think he would want you to be. Being your self is the best thing to do. and even if he sees that the break up has affected you then maybe that is a good thing as it would have affected him in someway as well.
When you see him there might also be times when it feels like you are still going out and there might even be a time when you might end up sharing a kiss because all the feelings for each other came back.
Good luck for when you go and see him =] Hope it all goes well
Shel x
♥ If you don't like how things are, change it. You are not a tree! ♥
we're almost 19 and have been together since we had just turned 16, roughly. im his first everything, and i think hes starting to wonder if hes with me cos he loves me or cos its comfortable. i just hope he realises that we make such a gd couple and we make each other so happy, and that its rare to find that.
Theres no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb.
"They dont have meetings about rainbows..."
"How will you know I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain,
to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain" C.Blout
This reminds me of when my ex and i split up last year. We'd been togetehr nearly 3 years (and we're living together) but he said we needed to talk (cos he was gonna be on a placement year the next year and not be in sheffiled). I asked him the night before-will we be ok? and he said yes
the next day he told me it was over... and it hit me like a ton of bricks. i loved him so much. i asked him if he still loved me and he said he didnt know.
we gave each other space. but you know what, 7 months on we're best friends. its taken me this long to realise we had grown apart. And i've met someone esle. Someone who is so muhc more like me/better suited to me.
I'm not saying give up, just that even tho it seems like this will never get better you shouldn't give up hope.
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