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Had enough!
So today went docs had to take a form about something so my doc could write a letter. Doc said she doesn't do it receptionist does, took it to receptionist said she doesn't do it so I have to put in writing what I want the covering letter to be about so they can write it and will charge for it. Parents were furious saying that they should of gone with me, how useless I am and I can't do anything right. Then I started to go back to old ways of thinking and questioning what I did wrong I showed the GP and recepintost the letter and what I needed from them. I'm 25, I've managed to live in a flat on my own, pay bills with no help from anyone, I've only moved back to parents because of health issues This is the fucked up attitude that has messed me up. Why does it seem everyone treats me as if I'm a child or retard when I know ALOT more than anyone thinks!
It's my mums birthday Monday she's going to her sisters the weekend normally every year we celebrate it as a family and I feel hurt that I've been excluded. I told how I feel but she's just made it into an argument, trying to make me feel guilty and saying she isn't going now. Like a child but I refuse to let her make me feel guilty. She's make her discisions. Instead of listening to what I was actually saying. This is not the first time this has happened lately.
The other day I owed My dad some money. A conversation about the vulnerable was taking place at the time maybe it was about a program or something and then my dad made a joke and turned to my mum "ha im literally taking money off the vulnerable" meaning me. I know it's not a big deal but just think all your life you keep getting told all your life your vulnerable, useless it's shit.
Another thing I've got a lot of health issues at the moment having loads of tests. Parents refuse to take me seriously and think it's all I my head. I'm losing weight for no reason and though ice only lost a kg since last been checked my parents still thought this was a laugh.
Had enough!!! I can't take much more, aswell as all this. I'm dealing with my daughters fathers death, looking after a toddler and the hell in my head that's BPD. I can't take anymore!!!
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