no control *suicide*

[Tabilock]

So everything has gone tits up....

I had to leave my old job because i was off too much with anxiety, got a new job which was alot less money and as a result i have been struggling financially..my landlady is selling my flat in a few months and barely covering rent i cannot save to cover deposit fees and costs of moving

I have a applied for a loan which i find out about next week but if i dont get there i will basically be homeless.

now the job i am doing is call centre i have done call centre for years and never had an issue but my bosses boss has it in for me, i am being pulled up for doing something wrong on a daily basis, Just feels like i cant do anything right and im constantly being told off.

like everyone is constantly getting at me. I have been pulled off the phones this boss talks to me like shit refuses to listen to anything i say just keeps saying i am wrong.

im at breaking point, im working so hard to keep my shit together and for what?

i keep thinking if this loan doesnt come through i might as well kill myself, i cant get anything right. i dont want to go back there i dont want to bein the same room as him. i feellike he is picking on me and im not strongenough to stand up for myself.

ive just had enough of strugglingand fighting and for what to be constantly put down made to feel like shit feel constantly scared and anxious because my life is going to shit and there is not a thing i can do about it.

i just feel so isolated and alone and i dont know what to do.

really not looking for any practical advise just i dont know need some emotional support i guess.

[Forest Fire]

if you've been doing call centre for years and it's just a problem with a boss, could you look for another call centre job?
sorry to hear you are struggling with so much at the minute, you've got a lot to deal with.
I know nothing of your situation so i'm sorry if any of this is no use, but do you have friends or family who could help you with your living situation, either with a room or money?
sorry if i've not been much help but i read your message and wanted to reply

[Epicene]

I know you're not looking for practical advice, but I just wanted to encourage you to speak to Citizens Advice or a local debt/money charity that can help you with this side of things.

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. It sounds like you are doing the best you can, and that's really commendable when faced with such hard times. Please do your best to keep going. You will be able to get through this, even if the loan doesn't come through there will be other solutions.