Today, Despite having eaten my 'limit' that the Anorexia set me, I pushed through, told the Anorexia where to f**k off & ate more because I wanted it, because it was yummy & because my body needs & deserves nourishment.
This is a great idea, I loved this thread. Really motivating :)
I finally settled my insurance and made an appointment with a gp for Monday so that I can deal with the health issues caused by my ed
Aw, bless all <3. Everyone is doing so well!!!
Today I pushed myself to eat lunch before my counselling appointment though my head was screaming and made up for missed snacks over supper and afternoon tea
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
Yesterday I agreed to reach a healthy BMI while I'm inpatient.
& Today I plan on eating a slice of my birthday cake, because cake is yummy & I deserve to!
^^ Of course it counts! This thread is for everyone & I'm very proud of you! *squish*
I've decided to try & eat 1 fear food a day & really try to enjoy it, to let myself think about how nice it is - Yesterday I managed it & I'm determined to do it again today.
I went to my GP and spoke to her about my weight gain. I told her how I've been eating and how I'm afraid I'll start using unsafe methods out of desperation to become thinner. I'm scheduled for blood work next week to check my cholesterol and thyroid. She gave me new medication that I'm going to try despite being afraid of it, and she helped schedule an appointment with a nutritionist, which I'm really excited about. Progress seems like a more realistic outcome now.
Brilliant work everyone. These sound like really massive achievements, and you should all be very proud.
I have been shopping and replaced most of the food that I threw away in a very disordered 'freak out' yesterday morning. I feel guilty because it's such a waste of money and I really can't afford to do it, but logically it is better than the alternative of justifying restricting because of having no food.
I have also written my food diary for today in advance, because somehow writing it down makes it easier to stick to it.
I ate breakfast and lunch today despite feeling very sick from anxiety and wanting to restrict. And I'll have dinner when Jenna's finished tutoring. Even though I really don't want anything.
Despite being anxiety and worry making me be sick Ive managed to inch my intake up to acceptable levels with little snacks. (I find snacks at all very difficult so that I had several is a big win)