Miscarriage, due date, work.

[Emmabob.]

It hit me yesterday that my bean would have made their appearance if my body hadn't ****ed me over, going by the date I miscarried.

I don't know what to do with myself - I'm working tomorrow night and definitely not up to it. Words cannot even describe how bad I want to call in sick.

I don't know what to do.

[Enthused]

I can't try to understand how you are feeling so I won't bother with that bollocks. Would going to work not help take your mind off it? for a few hours at least.

[Snow White.]

If you did, or were able, to call in sick, would you be able to plan things for yourself to do to comfort yourself and keep yourself safe or as above, work work be more of a distraction?

I'm sorry you're facing so much pain right now. Can you lean on those around you for support?

[Emmabob.]

The boyfriend has been laid in bed with me up until 15-20 minutes or so ago, went and laid in the bath & still feel as **** as I did, wasn't expecting a bath to be a cure for all but I was hopeful it'd help slightly. The boyfriend doesn't know what to do with me, I'd been ok recently when it came to miscarrying but with the dates, I've turned into a wreck again.

I think the main reason I don't want to go in is because the biitchy nurse is gonna be working & I'm gonna be the only other person in with her - I've been there about 5 weeks or so now & she's still not learnt my name despite me having a name badge. For some strange reason, I don't feel up to getting called "she" or "her" all night.

If I call in, I'll probably spend time bingewatching breaking bad/playing mario kart/watching walking dead, which probably doesn't sound like much but it won't be hours of doing nothing. Nightshifts are so dull, turn everyone every few hours and that's about it, maybe do some paperwork but not a whole lot apart from that.

[Shenanigans]

I know where you are, I understand and I'm very sorry you've hit this sad part of your loss. I found my due date was extremely painful. I'm glad your partner has been there for you, even if he's unsure what exactly to do, someimes there isn't really anything that can be "done" or "said". I found that what I really needed was just to allow myself to be sad about what happened. It is sad. You're allowed to be sad about it.

Honestly? If it were me I'd call in sick. I'd wrap myself up in a duvet and binge on tv series and play computer games. I'd give myself that time to be sad and to seek comfort from the people and things that make me happy/content.

Of course, that's not for everyone and some people find it much easier to throw themselves into work and distractions to help them work through their feelings without directly confronting it.

The main thing is to do what you feel will help you work through this time.

I hope you ar treating yourself gently and with the love you deserve.

[nowhereman]

I just wanted to say how sorry I am, that must be so heartbreaking. I can't pretend I know how it feels either, but please take good care of yourself, you deserve to. Sending all my love and best wishes to you and your boyfriend.