I don't think you're as ill as you make yourself out to be & I don't think you need the meds you're talking about. I'm sorry I'm dismissive & not supportive but it all seems so OTT when to me you mostly seem fine & your moods seem relatively stable. I don't get it but I hope whatever this bloke says makes you happy. I can't guarantee I'll support what he says or does but I will try to keep my mouth shut.
I know what you really think of me, well maybe I am crazy and don't know what's real or not, but at least I have an excuse. I know you lie. And now I think you made it all up cos you think im crazy. Well I'm not crazy enough to believe your lies. Or stupid enough for that matter.
I'm trying really hard to be supportive & keep my gob shut when I don't agree with something but it's hard when I don't see what you're saying in front of me. I feel like you say your moods are really unstable & "all over the place" but you really don't present like that - & I spend every day with you so it's hard to believe that you can front it like that all the time & is easier to believe that you exaggerate or see it differently.
Also dinner out with your family would be fine if HE wasn't there.
I wish you knew the damage you've done to our Mum.
Yes, that's right, our MUM.
The one that gave birth to us, the one that raised us alone, the one that does and did EVERYTHING for you especially, the one who loves you even after everything you've done/said to her, I could go on here.
You need to grow up, grow some balls, APOLOGIZE to Mum, and get a grip.
F*k you for this sh*t.
I can't believe you, well actually, I can, because this is you all over!
Our Mum is slowly going out of her mind, and YOU have just sped the process up.
She could be dead within the year, or a few years at best, and you decided to disown her and treat her like the sh*t on your shoe?!
I want to live but I'm too stupid and incapable. You might see this as giving up but to me it is the lesser of two evils.
I had hope but it continually vanishes and that is too painful to endure for too long.
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
I just want to love and be loved but I am craving the physical presence just as much as the mental aspect. I really just want to kiss someone. Just for a little while. I just want to be something to someone and not have them be far away, I haven't had that in over three years and I miss it.
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I know you were just generally curious and don't mean anything by it but why are you so interested in how my disability affects my sex life?
like..dude...yes I can have sex. no it doesn't really affect anything..no I'm obviously no super flexible why do you care?
of all the questions to ask about someone having cerebral palsy you ask that one -_-
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I actually reached out in group today. Do you know how scary that was? Do you how much it took to even give you a glimpse of how scary everything is right now. I asked for help. I'm scared and overwhelmed. I would have settled for the last 5 minutes. I'm sorry but the way I was treated made me feel so very worthless this morning.
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