Grief from abortion?

[Stress Free Anxiety]

Please tell me I'm not alone in this. Because I hurt and I feel so alone.

In December I found out I was very unexpectedly pregnant. It couldn't have happened at a worse time for me or my partner. On paper an abortion was the best choice, the only choice really that wouldn't cause serious problems in both our lives and the lives of our children from other partners. It was with heavy hearts we scheduled the appointment. He wanted to be there for me for all of it, but military obligations has him clear across the country with very limited phone access. Since the procedure last week we've only briefly spoke twice about things.

I have to fake being okay and honestly I forgot how exhausting that is. I had been doing so well in my recovery, minus a setback when I was diagnosed with postpartum depression after going both to my daughter. This has got me right back to just wanting to hide in my bed all day.

[whirlpools]

It must all feel very raw for you right now. I understand just how mentally and physically draining a termination can be and would urge you to take things gently for a while and allow yourself to go through the grief.

There are counselling services out there specifically for bereavement so it might be worth seeking out some extra help and support if the grief takes too long to pass. For me, it was most intense after the procedure but began to ease a little after my baby's due date - but the grief process is different for everyone.

All my love.

[Stress Free Anxiety]

Thanks much. Raw is probably the best way to describe right now. I know it's going to be a process and a fairly long one at that. I've got a structured recovery group I'm hoping to join once it opens up. Until I find work, counseling isn't much of an option. My husband's (currently separated and possibly divorcing) income is still taken into consideration when they try to qualify me for assistance, even though we're in separate states and he contributes nothing to me out here. I'm scheduling a follow up with the obgyn who I initially saw to confirm my pregnancy just in case we decided to carry and parent or place for adoption. He was amazingly understanding and made it clear he wanted to check in on me no matter what we chose to do. If I get a referral from him my insurance might cover meeting with a therapist.