Sorry hun, I really think this post should be signposted as graphic, as simple as the question is, it can hit quite hard.
In answer to your question, there probably isn't one because of the multitude of perspectives it's inspiring.
When someone has a fatal illness, where the prognosis is known definitively that the person will suffer terrible physical pain until the moment they die, that's one part of the discussion your question opens.
I think you might be touching on a different angle though, maybe from the angle I've looked at myself, but that might be because we all see things from our own perspective, because that's all we have.
When I have felt no reason to live, and many reasons not to, that being intense emotional pain or endless numbness and emptiness, I asked the same question to myself and got so angry with anyone and everyone who I thought was stopping me from being able to die. All those I might hurt - I felt I had to stay alive for them, so they don't hurt, but how is that fair because by staying alive I am hurting, more than they can imagine and more than they are willing to hear?
I still don't have an answer to that question unfortunately, but I do feel intensely grateful when I think of all the times I tried to take my own life that I didn't succeed. I still cry at the thought my father and sister might have had to attend my funeral together. And I am so so thankful that that did not happen.
That's all I can say hun. I hope you're ok. Many hugs xx
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