Really struggling tonight

[when.will.it.end]

Have they said why they are discharging you when you're still suicidal?

[Angelina]

I think a lot of Drs have the mentality that if you're going to kill yourself you're going to kill yourself and there is nothing they can do. It is silly because I do not think it is that simple.

Maybe he is one of those. Hopefully your bf can help. x

[Ballerina123]

I'm feeling a bit less hopeless and more motivated today although I'm still depressed and don't see the point.

I think im going to say to the consultant that I want to stay on the ward and get help the only problem is I have the impression he doesn't want to help me. He's alway dismissive of what I say and has never suggested any med that might help (i know I'd rather not be on meds but he doesn't know that). He didn't even ask. Or about therapy or about anything. I get the impression he hates me and just wants me off the ward. That might not be the case but it the way it comes across.

[Ballerina123]

The consultant has taken me off all my meds without telling me and told the nurses to only give prn when absolutely necessary.

It's killing me literally. I've had 2 panic attacks because I'm not on my anti anxiety meds and started to form a plan about how to kill myself in this hospital.
The withdrawl has just made me more depressed and more anxious.

I know i don't like meds but I wouldn't have just stopped them I would have tapered them down. But this guy just took me from top doses to nothing. Now I'm left over the weekend to deal with it.

[sherlock holmes]

It might be possible that you were taken off of your meds so that the doctors and nurses can get an idea of what you're like and how you feel with nothing in the way, it's called a 'baseline'. Sometimes certain meds mask things and others can even make things worse, so they might want to know exactly what you're like off meds and then what they can do from there.

It's worth asking the nurses or the psych why you were taken off meds and how you can deal with your anxiety without medication.

[tamobhuuta]

*hugs* how are you getting on today?

[Ballerina123]

Things are not going well I have such bad anxiety I can't leave my room or eat or drink.

I don't know where to turn. I'm hopeless and have lost all motivation to help myself.

[Cacoethes]

Do the staff know how anxious you are feeling?
Could you talk to them next time they come to check on you?

You're doing really well and remember the doctors will be back in tomorrow so you'll be able to get your meds sorted and hopefully start feeling better. I always found weekends so much worse on the wards because nothing can be done xx

[Ballerina123]

I've told the staff how I feel. They said there is nothing they can do till the doctor comes in tomorrow.

I really ready to give up x

[Wonderland.]

It's really important that you stay well hydrated, especially with it being summer. Otherwise you may end up quite ill on a drip in the general hospital.

Could you try and have a few sips of water? Is there any drinks you find safe at the moment that someone could go out and buy for you?

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling tonight and have to wait till tomorrow to be seen by the doctor. Hopefully they can put you on something to help with the anxiety.

[Ballerina123]

How do you brake out of hospital?

[Ballerina123]

Called the police and they will not come and save me. What do I do now?

[tamobhuuta]

try to trust the hospital staff, they are there to help you. you are ill and need support.

[when.will.it.end]

What's going on? Why do you want to get out so badly?

[Ballerina123]

The nursing staff are lying about my presentation and the doctor said I've never had any mental illness.
I don't know what they are playing at and why I have to stay if im not ill?

I have a plan to escape though by tonight.

[when.will.it.end]

Can you get an advocate? Running away won't solve anything. They'll just call the police and you'll get dragged back.

[Ballerina123]

Not if they can't find me.

I want to make a complaint about my care but the ward manager has disappeared for a week. Who do I talk to now?

[when.will.it.end]

You can always call pals.

How realistic is it for you to just disappear some place and not be found? Assuming you manage to get off the ward.

[Aubergine]

Do you know what kind of lies the staff are telling?

The doctor saying that sounds very confusing. Did he tell you why he thinks that?

Do try to stay put. Katie is right; you need to contact PALS if the ward manager is not available.

[Angelina]

They might mean you have PD instead. My CC used to make a clear distinguishment between mental illness and pd and say pd wasn't a mental illness. It could be that school of thought. X