I agree with Snow White, this thread feels very intense. There's a lot of judgements and medical words being thrown about, and I'd like to remind people that only a trained doctor can diagnose someone with something, and it certainly would not happen over an internet forum.
cjosaurus51 I'm interested in why you said you wanted this thread to be "perfect"? What would make this thread perfect in your eyes?
Do you feel very close, or protective over your sister? For example you mentioned you had to wait until you and your Dad could take her to volleyball. Do you usually go along to drop your sister off somewhere?
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
I agree with Snow White, this thread feels very intense. There's a lot of judgements and medical words being thrown about, and I'd like to remind people that only a trained doctor can diagnose someone with something, and it certainly would not happen over an internet forum.
cjosaurus51 I'm interested in why you said you wanted this thread to be "perfect"? What would make this thread perfect in your eyes?
/ pretty much not to get off topic. And try to make everything clear and understandable. And not get angry...
Do you feel very close, or protective over your sister? For example you mentioned you had to wait until you and your Dad could take her to volleyball. Do you usually go along to drop your sister off somewhere?
/I feel protective, and I try to be close, but she always seems to push me away.
Unless I need to go somewhere else,yes.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
yeah, either I go to sleep now, or my body will make me. Catch up later, guys! bye.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
Do you think you should take a step back from your sister? It might feel a bit suffocating for her for you to be around her all of the time, which could be why she is pushing you away.
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
You dont have to physically force for it to be rape. Just saying. And as i see it, asking someone to lick your butt is not asking for sex. More a way of saying piss off. You also say sneak peaks but maybe that is how you see it cause you WANT to see it. It could be completely innocent from her.
She may also be scared of the rage you have which will leave her unable to say no to you out of fear of how you will react.
All is still doesnt make it okay for you to do these things.
Personally i think you need to be removed from the situation and get help. You are at fault but as many other abusers, you make yourself the victim. Do you have any idea how common comments like "she asked for it" "she flirted" "i bought her a drink" all things that makes a rapist think its okay to have sex with a woman or man, in spite of them not wanting to. All ways of avoiding responsibility when they end up in trouble. Even though people flirt, does not mean you have a right to have sex with them, it does not mean they want you to. I dont think you did it out of cruelty and with the intention to hurt but you do have guilt in this and i do believe you misread her signals.
I get that you are young and that means that you do need help and you can change. But you need to be able to see that you do have guilt in this, you are a part. And by realising that and that it is not the person you want to be, you can change. But you have to stop blaming her and make excuses. You have to realise that what you did was wrong and that she is obviously hurt and scared and upset by what you did. And that explains her behavior.
So admit what you did and decide you dont want to be that person. You can change but only if you want to and only if you admits to your faults. Not by blaming others.
Last edited by Morpheus : 13-06-2014 at 09:51 PM.
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Ok. Lets's get something strait. Oh, forget it. It doesn't matter what I say, It HAS to be me because I'm the f***ing boy and she's the f***ing girl. f*** that f***ing idea. i've been judged so many times just cuz I'm the boy and she's the girl. F*** life.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
So suddenly cuz I was tthe f***ing idiot, I'M the f***ing abuser, even though I simply did it to get her helpp cleaning my room, and was a complete f***ing idiot?
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
NO!!!!! I asked for her help, she said lick my butt. And puller her own pants down. I did, thinking that was it, but she kept asking for more. she blackmailed me.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
Well I WAS looking for encouragement and advice, but as always, I get critisized for stuff I've already critisized myself over, way worse than you ever coulld. Hello, why do you think I tried to kill myself? Cuz I was guilty and I hated myself and what I'd done, cuz I knew i shoulda walked away. Sure my docters told me it wasn't my fault, but that doesn't mean I beleived em. i knew it was bs, and it made me wanna die even more. Thanks for reminding me why i tried to kill myself like a million times, and actually got close four times.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
i came here hopin i would learn to forgive myself, but its just another place i get to enjoy being told how horrible i am.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
yeah. suposed to be once a month, but most of those she has "family issues". and this is my 27th one. wonder how long she'll last...
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
yeah. I guess we are the "only thing like it they've ever seen" as my dad says. they don't know what to do with us. no one does...
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
she's ok, except the whole "commit him" thing. she's only the fourth to try.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
yeah. the day it was over cuz we were "ok", Allie called me a rapist and i got angry and choked her.( I had "anger issues" as allie told all her friends when she showed them her bruises, ttrying to get me arrested and tooken away.)
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
while we were in it. And no one knows how to help me they just pass me on once their brains finaly register the story and they realize how big it is.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
We dont have enough $ after dad got fired from a shady job when he refused to do something illegal.
Even though the world around me is dark,
I am a dim flame in the sorrow and depresion
A flicker of hope in this dark world in which we inhabit.
I will stay strong through the storms,
Never letting go of that glimmer of hope,
However small it is.
