Hi all, just wanted to poke my head in. It's Amy/Voldemort. Might come back and post on either name but I'm a bit paranoid to use my better known name right now. Anyway, hello.
I've been diagnosed with Psychosis for about a nearly 2 years, yet when I was in IP, they told me I didn't have it. Then, when I was discharged, I returned back to the EIT. I'm so confused.
I know I haven't got Psychosis, I've never had it, my reality is different to people with Psychosis, so why am I still under their team.
Mary, diagnosis aside, do your meds make your different reality a bit less different? Is life safe/easier when you are on your meds? (have also read your RV, hence the mention of meds.)
I think your best bet would be to discuss your thoughts about discharge with the EIT, as randomly discharging yourself is more likely to lead them to panic and try to force their presence upon you!
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I'm with EIT also and I know that unless your under section your perfectly within your rights to discharge yourself. Maybe talk to your team about what they think is wrong with you.
In my experience being under EIT is a lot better than being under the cmht as they have more time for you. So even if you don't believe you have psychosis it could be good, support wise, to stay under their team.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
Mary, diagnosis aside, do your meds make your different reality a bit less different? Is life safe/easier when you are on your meds? (have also read your RV, hence the mention of meds.)
I think your best bet would be to discuss your thoughts about discharge with the EIT, as randomly discharging yourself is more likely to lead them to panic and try to force their presence upon you!
It's hard to explain but my meds anger certain "people" hence why when given the chance I will not take them.
Yeah, I'll discuss it with them, don't want them to panic do I.
Kate, I do get a lot of positive opportunities with EIT, so I'll consider sticking around for them.
Sorry, I have no experience with the EIT but I agree with the others - you should clarify why you're with them and pump them for all the support you can get!
I have a question. How do you know if you're psychotic or if things are actually plausible and happening?
I was hearing and seeing things earlier this year and eventually, after a few tries, found a medication (solian/amisulpride) that has made that particular thing go away but here's the thing... They keep asking me if I'm seeing or hearing things and I'm not but I'm still having other thoughts and I don't know what's real. I also think I've had messages through from the men telling me that the medication is simply blocking the frequency waves they come through to find me. (They are in a parallel universe that's existence relies on certain people sacrificing themselves to keep both worlds from collapsing in on each other and killing everyone). I really don't know what's going on to be honest. I feel relatively stable at the moment but I am slightly concerned that the men will eventually work out how to break the barrier of waves that the medication has put up (they've done it before but I didn't know how or why it worked until a few days ago) and will come back. They're not particularly nice and are probably focusing their attention on other people as they have done in the past. This also makes me feel guilty because it means other people are hurting and dying in my place.
Sorry that's very long and very confused I think? I think I'm confused and also my psych knows none of this but I'm seeing him on the 21st and I don't know where to start. I'm being watched and spied on and they're reading all my thoughts and I'm generally quite scared of walking into a room at night and finding them with a knife, even though they can't get to me right now.
He also thinks, my psych hah, that I have BPD but I don't think so and nor does ANYONE else that knows me and I'm not even sure how this 'psychosis' fits into a BPD diagnosis. And I'm desperate to get him to change his mind but I'm not sure how and that is incredibly off topic.
Sorry, I shall stop spouting now and asking stupid questions. :/
Also does anyone else get really anxious when talking or even typing about this stuff? I feel like I'm telling tales and they'll be very angry about this if they come back.
I'm really sorry for all the posts. I've never really talked to anyone about this ever except for my partner and even then it's really hard.
Mary - My notes vary between saying 'psychosis - delusions/paranoia' and 'magical thinking' so I think diagnosis is a bit vague even when being assessed by different people. I find my AP medication helpful, though I do not believe I have psychosis I know I experience symptoms like it. If your meds help it doesn't matter what they are 'used' for. Like I'll be taking promethazine soon, not as an antihistamine but as a sedetive.
I understand how you feel RE diagnosis though. It's confusing and scary.
I'm getting visual and auditory hallucinations daily at the moment. I'm at uni and trying to keep my head together for that. Dose anyone have any advice about coping with these symptoms?
I've tried listening to music and that doesn't really help as my auditor hallucinations are mainly music (although I do here voices and other sounds).
I'm on 15mg of olanzapine do you think an increase would help?
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
You said in the other thread that you decreased your meds, obviously that was not the best idea? Maybe go back taking them.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
The voices get bad when I get very anxious or depressed now... I've been getting anxious more often than depressed which I think is good... Is it...? I dunno... I'm not sure what to do...
Major Depression | Asperger's Syndrome | Anxiety NOS | Hints of OCD
Close your eyes. Don't you cry. Love's around you. In time, you'll fly. Don't you worry about the dark. I will light up the night with the love in my heart. I will burn like the sun that will keep you safe and warm. Like the smell of a rose on a summer's day, I will be there to take all your fears away. With the touch of my hand, I will turn your life to GOLD!
Depressed cause I think of hurting myself 100% of the time. If I'm anxious, I think about 50% of the time.
Major Depression | Asperger's Syndrome | Anxiety NOS | Hints of OCD
Close your eyes. Don't you cry. Love's around you. In time, you'll fly. Don't you worry about the dark. I will light up the night with the love in my heart. I will burn like the sun that will keep you safe and warm. Like the smell of a rose on a summer's day, I will be there to take all your fears away. With the touch of my hand, I will turn your life to GOLD!
Kate, how are things now? Sorry I have no advice...
Lizzie, what sort of help do you get with that?
I'm thinking of printing off my post from the previous page and one from this page and giving them to my psych, what do people think? Am I making a big deal out of nothing or is it something he should know?
I thinks showing your psych would be a good idea also.
I'm fine.
I'm at work and I just went to pick a spoon up off the floor and loads of spiders were on it. I'm really unsure weather it was hallucination or not. I'm really confused and a bit scared. I'm loosing touch with reality and that's scary x
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
I don't really have visual hallucinations, so I'm not really sure what to suggest. Can you still see the spiders? Can you do anything like try to touch them to see if they are real? I think you're on a night shift. I used to do nights sometimes when I was a support worker and they were a nightmare with my brain. How many do you have to do?
I'm OK. I was panicking a lot about work, but my manager sent me a really reassuring message and I feel better. I do wonder how other people cope with work though? I work 16 hours a week and I get so anxious about it. I work with the public and it's really hard to do that and hear voices. I manage them very well most of the time, and most of the time I am OK with them not being real, but sometimes they take over and that is difficult. How do you have a conversation with someone when there is someone else speaking to you at the same time?
“Our defeats are softened and our victories are sweetened because we did it together.” - Toby Ziegler.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
