I dont want to hurt myself

[feelslonely]

So I dyed my hair. Didn't turn out the way a wanted it to. But after awhile I got use to it, an other ppl thoughtit looked good. I was a blond an I dyed my hair a blue/black. Do it was a big change. I showed my boyfriend an then he said he couldn't look at me cuz of my hair. Then after awhile he said that I look emo. Now in my past you could say was emo, doing harm to myself. So my self-esteem went down, an now im starting to hate. An I just want to curl up in a ball, cry an hurt myself.

[Mirenyth]

He's being quite dramatic saying that he can't look at you because of your hair, quite pathetic really. Sounds like you could do better. Try not to let someone else bring you down, especially over something so trivial.

I bet your hair looks lovely.

[feelslonely]

Yea I told him how I felt an he said he was joking an didn't mean to hurt me an he was sry. It just hurt me more then he knows. He knows of my pass, an I have been doing good on not harming myself. I just feel like all my self-esteem went way down. Its hard for me to make changes an this was a big change. Its something everyone is going to see. An im starting to like it again, since more ppl say they like it. I don't care if there lying to me or not just makes me feel better just to hear them say it.

[Pi.R^2]

If he didn't like it, he wouldn't feel comfortable making such a joke. I find it kind of reassuring if someone makes a joke about something, even if I think the joke is in bad taste, because it means that the other person feels comfortable enough with you to make a joke, and that the thing they're pretending to hate is probably something they're cool with, otherwise they'd feel too awkward to joke.

I hope that makes sense!

[feelslonely]

Yea I understand what your saying. Just with him saying that I look emo, really hurt, plus with him knowing my pass an how I am now. I guess I was just hoping he would understand that, that would of hurt me.

[feelslonely]

Yea I told him that he hurt me when he said those things. He said he felt like an a hole, an he was sry. I mean I forgave him an all, I just he wished how much it really hurt. Hes not a bad guy, just dont think before he speaks. He knows about my pass an how much I try to forget it. But just with some of the things he says, just gives me memories of my pass.