don't feel too good.

gleeek2013 · 19-03-2014, 10:07 PM

I need advice. I didn't eat from Monday morning, earlier I felt weak shaky and sick. So I ate some potatoes and beans. I still don't feel right and my heart feels weird in my chest if that makes sense. It's 100bpm sitting/resting. I dunno if this normal but I'm also feeling not good because I ate. Idk If this normal or not?

Unbreakable. · 21-03-2014, 04:14 PM

I think if you don't eat for a bit your body takes a bit to be able to deal with food again. Give your body a day or two to feel a little better again, but make sure you keep eating properly. Maybe consider having stomach friendly foods, as after a fast it is quite easy to get an upset stomach from certain foods.

I can't say if your other symptoms are related to it, but they might be mentally or physically caused by the fasting and re-introduction of food. If it doesn't go away and especially if your chest starts hurting badly go and see a doctor straight away.

gleeek2013 · 21-03-2014, 11:40 PM

Yh hunni I feel better now thanks x. I think I'm slipping back and I don't like it. The more I loose weight the more it encourages me to keep it up. But I don't want to I'm hungry, most of time I feel like crying rather than speak to someone, people are noticing too much now and I don't like it. I don't know how I got here and I don't know how I'm going to get back out. I tell lies to my mum daily now, and I'm glad when she believes me. I think about the money I saved not buying food and it's like I shouldn't be spend money on myself anyway. There's no much my head it telling me I don't deserve,it tells me I just need to loose another 5lbs and I be perfect but perfect never fu*@ing comes :(

LittleCloud · 22-03-2014, 07:05 AM

I understand how that feels *hugs* wish I could say more, but I do know how painful it feels

gleeek2013 · 22-03-2014, 11:04 AM

Hugs hun x thanks x

fragile as glass · 24-03-2014, 01:20 PM

Could you stop weighing yourself? If you don't know if or how much weight you are losing that could help break the cycle you seem to be getting yourself into.
You probably are going to feel physically unwell when you eat until your stomach and body gets used to food again but thats totally normal and you'll be surprised at how quickly it can readjust.

gleeek2013 · 25-03-2014, 10:36 PM

I can't stop weighing it's the first thing I do in morn I need to do it. I ate past two days and gained today so not good.

Too Shy · 26-03-2014, 12:28 AM

I think fragile as glass is right re. the weighing yourself. It is very scary to not do it, but it sounds like it would be really worth working on because as soon as you weigh yourself you'll be overwhelming and think about restricting if you see any gain at all - even though weight fluctuates throughout the day anyway, which is why they recommend only weighing weekly.

gleeek2013 · 26-03-2014, 01:29 PM

ill try working on it hunni x im trying to work on eating had a graze flapjack today and going long jog later so sorta balances each other out but its a start.

gleeek2013 · 26-03-2014, 01:35 PM

if theres one thing that bugs me its stupid questions. someone asked me if they should go full pro or be a little less than full on ... (i know it dont even make much sence) ... but after me giving them a big speech etc they said it wasnt for me to comment they had a relapse and they have passed their aim nothing will stop them. just makes me think silly little girls would give up wishing their lives away. they cannot be for real (on-line friend) seriously expecting me to believe asking to be pro ana is an eating disorder. bugs me something awful if they had any idea what a hell it is they wouldnt be asking they think its a game they dont realise it makes u ill, less sociable, cold, that they never reach the hip bones they keep reffering to, that they will see themselfs as fatter and fatter, they just dont have a clue what a real problem is.

fragile as glass · 26-03-2014, 05:10 PM

Look at it that you have the strength not to go down the pro ana route and you are trying to overcome your illness x

gleeek2013 · 26-03-2014, 11:13 PM

I know but I would love to go bk to their blissfullness. Sit 10 year old me down and tell me what to happen and avoid it. It was the first diet I ever done (I was a chubby kid and was put on diet.... I was same weight I am now but 3-5 inches shorter I think... And it just led to this. We never got the choice just makes me angry they do.

fragile as glass · 28-03-2014, 07:09 PM

I too wish that the little girl me was told of everything that I would lose with my ED and SH. Maybe I would have thought twice before that first 'diet' or that first scratch.

I think though that if we keep revisiting a scenario that can never happen (like going back in time) all we will do is end up beating ourselves up over something that was never done and can't be changed now. We may not be able to change our pasts but we have a say in our present and the opportunity to map out a future for ourselves that we really want.