I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I'm a worrier by nature and I have so many worries and a feeling of sadness right now. It's my birthday soon which is always a trigger time and I have no family to make it special. My sister's birthday is 2 days after mine and she still has my family to fuss over and care and help and support her. I dunno, maybe im feeling sorry for myself. I just don't know.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
Perhaps she was just concerned lovely. What would help you to feel better? *Snuggles* perhaps
*curls up* she is but mum's now yelling at me because I don't want to go to maths [it's a freaking Saturday!!] and I don't even feel supported by going i get more and more angry every week I have to go and i get more and more confused add in the fact that I feel practically stupid and it all leads to suicidal thoughts and wanting to go back to bad stuff to cope
"For I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me"
"You are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me"
* hugs Disney *
Am so sorry you are feeling bad i hope things get better for you
Monday is me and my husbands wedding anniversary we are going to have a nice meal at home no pressure to eat it all like i feel when we are going out for a meal ...
I never went in the end, mummy canclled the lessons so I won't be going at all,but, this means I'm going to fail my gcse because this is my final chance to get it without having to pay for it to go to uni.
haveing to eat something is really panicking me later, i don't want to do it, i'm really anxious because it just doesn't look fun and it looks scary, my friend who's been this sort of stuff said that she's going to make me a 'diet plan' but i do'nt know what thsat is.
*hugs for all and glitter*
"For I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me"
"You are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me"
Hey everyone! Going to see Wicked sounds Amazing! Liddy I'm sorry your feeling so low. I can empathise Disney I'm really bad at Maths too :( I'm sorry to whinge I'm having a tough week my mum has had a health scare and I'm so terrified to lose her and then my oldest friend lost her mum last week she was amazing and I just feel so sad. I have to go to monitoring clinic because I'm waiting for an outpatient psychologist the shame is crippling my weight is through the roof just feel so worthless sorry I gate crashed the thread :(
This thread is made for gate crashing! I hope you feel better soon on a more serious note. Its great that your mum is ok now though, sorry to hear about your friends mum. x hugs
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
wondering how long I can keep up what I'm doing... :(
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
What are you struggling with tonight, can you explain a little bit more to us? x
Sorry I'm not great with words. I'm struggling lots with the idea of having to eat tomorrow when I get up and when I go to dance well, before dance, and I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with seeing my friend on Friday who's making me a 'diet plan' when I don't know what this is and that is again, worrying me as I've no one to talk to about it as my mum doesn't know about the 'eating disorder' thing she just thinks i'm picky xx
"For I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me"
"You are good, you are good when there's nothing good in me"
*hugs* Disney. I get what you mean. I'm seeing friends most of whom I haven't spoken with since I said I was struggling more with eating. Hope everything goes ok. Don't want to eat more today. Don't want the hastles...
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
