well, i went to the doctors today to find out if i had depression. the doctor asked me a few questions then asked my mate a question about me. then she gave me a depression test to see what symptons i have. high moderate depression but she cant give me anything as im under 18 so i need to go back sometime after school has finneshd and all my exams are done, and meybe talk about getting a theroist/sycolagist to diagnose me properly so i can get the pills i need.
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
There's a test for depression? How does the test go?
it was just a few qestions like 'do you have trouble sleeping, how offen o you over eat or under eat, how offen do you have siucidle thorts' stuff like that and u have to circle a number. 0 not at all, 1sometimes, 2 alott, 3 always
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
she referd something but my dads late shifts are unprodictable so its hard to find a time when hes not in so i can go
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
it was just a few qestions like 'do you have trouble sleeping, how offen o you over eat or under eat, how offen do you have siucidle thorts' stuff like that and u have to circle a number. 0 not at all, 1sometimes, 2 alott, 3 always
I'm suprised that didn't refer you to CAMHS if you scored high for depression.
What did she say in the appointment?
nonono, im in the high bundrey for mdertae depression, one more point from the test and i would have been the next level up
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
So she's referred you to some therapy or something then?
yeahh but i need to go back first
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
when you going back? Also did she suggest anything to help you now?
after my exams
no, she says im not in ny imidiet danger atm and she told my friend to keep an eye on me
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
she referd something but my dads late shifts are unprodictable so its hard to find a time when hes not in so i can go
Do you mean it's hard to find a time when your dad isn't in the house so he doesn't know where you are going?
if so, do you think you can tell your dad? it's really stressful having to sneak around to appointments and because you're only 15, they may need to let your parents know what is going on for you at the moment
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
Do you mean it's hard to find a time when your dad isn't in the house so he doesn't know where you are going?
if so, do you think you can tell your dad? it's really stressful having to sneak around to appointments and because you're only 15, they may need to let your parents know what is going on for you at the moment
yesss
noo wayyyy
i dont find it stress ful atall i have done alot with out him knowing, and im not lying aboutit i just dont bring it up
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
if so, do you think you can tell your dad? it's really stressful having to sneak around to appointments and because you're only 15, they may need to let your parents know what is going on for you at the moment
Word! I've been in hospital over night and still not told my dad and it's just awful keeping secrets....I would suggest just being open and honest!
