The girls at work were talking about a programme called prisoners today and were saying people that self harm should be put down. They don't know I cut but it hurt all the same.
The girl who is sitting next to me in school told me that it is easy to get a tick (?) out if you use a razor or a scalpel. LOL
She knows I used to sh so I told her that others in school wouldn't want to see me with a razor blade cutting at my wrist (cause that's where I had the tick)
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
I got this from my sister the other day (who is getting ready for graduation at the end of May), "You better hide those scars when family is around. Don't embarass me.)
You can bandage the damage, you never really can fix a Heart.
Stay Strong and Be Unbroken.
Carrielee, 20.
Demi Lovato IS my inspiration.
'It's not like it's hard, you just resist and don't do it. If you do you're just being stupid. I managed not to so what's wrong with you?'
Hush, little baby, drink your spoiled milk
I'm crazy, need my prescription filled
Do you like my cookies? They're made just for you
A little bit of sugar, but lots of poison, too
The thing I hate is when my father says " it looks like you took a cheese grader to your leg!" Or two weeks ago he said my shoulder looks like I have road rash. H thinks I should have " out grown this depression and cutting"
The girls at work were talking about a programme called prisoners today and were saying people that self harm should be put down. They don't know I cut but it hurt all the same.
I heard some very negative comments about the girls on that programme too and it made me feel sad, because the people on it were struggling with really crap lives and it was obvious they were all really unhappy.
People can be so cruel and judgemental.
*starts harming themselves*
THERE! I MADE YOU FEEL BAD! HOW DO YOU LIKE IT?! HUH?! DOES THIS MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER?
*smashes hand on table and beats on it*
I FEEL BAD! BOO HOO! EVERYBODY PAY ATTENTION TO ME!
*karate chops arm*
SEE? THERE! YOU MADE ME FEEL BAD! THAT MUST MAKE YOU FEEL SO MUCH BETTER! ARE YOU HAPPY?
I have two black cuts, cause I kind of tatooed myself.
A teacher who knows I used ot harm said:
'Did you get a tatoo??'
Me: 'No. I got those more than a year ago'
She: 'We had a problem with another pupil at school, because he has tatoos'
Me:'It's not a tatoo though'
She:'It looks like you drew them on your arm. People could think that you don't wash yourself.'
Thanks for saying that to me in from of a patient who I had to work with!!
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
This was said to me by someone who isn't aware that I SH.
She was telling me about a bunch of difficult stuff that she's going through at school and at home and said, "Sometimes I feel like I want to do something dumb, like hurt myself. But I wouldn't be that stupid."
Thanks calling something that I struggle with "stupid"
I know that she doesn't know that I do it, but it just seems like a really insensitive thing to say.
Not said to me direct, but on the telly. The first episode of The Job Lot, which is supposed to be a comedy.
"Without him I would be cutting myself" (a person was describing how useful another person was). I got very pissed off because SI is not a thing you should make a joke about. I didnt watch the second episode because of that.
Wannabe CPN : -)
"He who is tired of Weird Al is tired of life." - Homer Simpson "I hear those voices that will not be drowned" Sanity is a nasty disease. The world would be a happier place without it. - Rilic
RIP Kat 4th July 1987- 11th June 2013
I told the people in chat this but I recently had someone tell me that I should take up cutting as a form of "passing the time". Obviously he had no clue that I was a cutter.
I then informed him that I *used* to cut to which he responded with "but you seem so normal" :|
I responded back to him with "I am normal"
He doesn't always have the best censorship, that's for sure.
Angels are friends who supportyou when your wings forget tofly.
About the Netherlands Eurovision song, my mother said "god this song is so depressing it's makes me wants to slit my wrists".
Thanks Mum
Wannabe CPN : -)
"He who is tired of Weird Al is tired of life." - Homer Simpson "I hear those voices that will not be drowned" Sanity is a nasty disease. The world would be a happier place without it. - Rilic
RIP Kat 4th July 1987- 11th June 2013
about scars: oh its fine, everyone has scars, i even have stretch marks after giving birth, so dont be ashamed of yours.
seriously??? cause thats the same thing??
♥ .I'm going to fall like I don't need saving. ♥
...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
My friends always tell me not to. Bit this one, with the best intentions, said 'if you cut yourself again,I will stop talking to you. I've been lying to her about it ever since.
And another one that someone who I don't consider my friend anymore said 'if you cut yourself I will cut myself' right. I'm in pain as it is. Just thrust guilt onto me too.
And yet another 'if you cut yourself again I will fly down there and cuddle you until you promise not to do it ever again' I mean he had the best in mind, but cuddling isn't going to help me.
And then there's the doctors. 'Why do you do this? Don't you know that you'll regret it later?' Or 'cutting is selfish. Why would you put your family and friends through that?'
