I just want to let you guys know that I am going back to inpatient today. In a week or two I will be transferred to residential in Texas. I hope all of you stay safe and I will be back as soon as I can!
Good luck with your treatment, and I hope all goes as well as possible for you and you gain all that you need. Keep us posted!
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Hey, wish you lots of luck there and i really hope it works out for you xx
♥ .I'm going to fall like I don't need saving. ♥
...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
“The only way that we can live is if we grow. The only way we can grow is if we change. The only way we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we are exposed is if we throw ourselves into the open.”
I just want to be okay again
i dont care what i takes
i know itll be hard
but i need to feel safe again
i know itll be worth it
when i finally reach
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Hello everyone! I just got home from inpatient and I am doing so well that I may not be going to Texas after all! Thank you for all of the kind words and support and keep your fingers crossed!
aw great news to hear! glad it went so well and well done you!
♥ .I'm going to fall like I don't need saving. ♥
...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
OK, I know it has been forever since I started this thread, but I thought you might want an update.
I went downhill, very fast. My cutting got even worse and I literally had no eyelashes or eyebrows. So I ended up going to The Menninger Clinic in Texas after all.
It seriously changed my life. The other patients were very focused and supportive (for the most part) and I made some great friends. All of the staff were absolutely amazing. I went through extensive testing to get the most accurate diagnosis available. This, along with an amazing individual therapist and group therapy, really gave me insight to my thinking patterns and why I might react to things oddly.
Overall, it was an amazing experience. I stayed in TX for two months, and really, I wouldn't have wanted to do anything else instead during that time.
Since I've been back, I've been in a much better place emotionally. As far an SI goes, I have slipped up only a few times, and those times they were very superficial- nothing like I was doing beforehand. As of today, all of my cuts are completely healed, and I now have eyebrows! (haha)
All in all, I think I'm past the worst of it. I have hard days, but now I know why I may feel the way I do... which helps me deal with it better.
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I also want to give a huge THANK YOU for all the support I've received on this site. I mean, I'm a total stranger to you guys, and yet you still encourage me and support me as if we were close friends. I would not have gotten to this point in recovery if it wasn't for amazing people like you.
Blue&Grey, I am so happy that you found it so helpful! I remember your threads about questions on residential treatment, and I had been wondering whatever came of that. So glad to see a positive outcome! Wishing you luck on your continued recovery.
Wow that was so amazing to read and made me smile. I'm so glad and happy that the facility helped turn your life around and help you get into the right head space. This shows you the inner strength that you must posses to have gotten this far. Your doing amazing and I'm so proud. Welldone and keep it up :) xxx
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