seriously triggered help please

[happiness...its all a lie]

Im nearly 1 and a half years self harm free and yet i feel the need to cut badly its soo overpowering. I cant cope with it. My mum just moans at me all the time, she is always worse off than everyone else. No one else works or gets tired or anything in her mind she just thinks shes miss wonderful and the rest of us are lazy or young so we should handle it. I have just finished a 53 hour week and am exhausted and shes starting on me. She moaned at me when i didnt have a job and now i do its still not good enough. I ****ing hate this i cant cope. I need the release and to feel the pain.

[PassedExpectations]

hey, how are you holding out?

it sounds like your mom is kind of out of touch with the reality of other people's lives, and i understand why it is really aggravating. she is being really insensitive.

does your job give you enough money that you could start to think about moving out?

[cloudedmind]

firstly, well done for not having done it in such a long time! that's a huge achievement. How are you feeling now? Can you remember what helped you to stop? It might be useful to remember to see if that makes a difference this time :) love xx

[happiness...its all a lie]

Hey

I managed to hold out. I cried a lot and it helped a bit. I did things i enjoyed. Im still feeling low. Not really i was out of work a long time and working lots of hours to try and get myself back on my feet financially.

Im less triggered now but i keep thinking about it. I dont want to do it deep down but i know the release would help. It took me so long to stop it and i cant let it happen again but its so tempting knowing the feeling i would get.

[Enchanted1]

Hello,

My mom was exactly the same way as yours, when my dad died she said something to me that I will never forget, and then when my brother died all she could think of was how it affected her, nothing about the other siblings or kids..just her.

Hang in there, I know its hard but you can do it. You were strong once before and have managed not to SH for well over a year and that is such an accomplishment!!!! Don't let her bother you so much, I know that is easier said than done, but it can be done.

Good luck to you :)

[happiness...its all a lie]

Hi

I cant do this, I cant keep holding off the urges everytime i try and get better someone says or does something that just means i go back to square one. What am i meant to do.

I just cant bare the mental pain anymore. I take my medication etc and its not helping but they wont change it as they think this is the most effective on me. I dont know how to keep fighting the urges.