The following content has been hidden - Reason : Mean, and could be triggering to someone, also pretty sure this doesn't apply to anyone on here
I can't believe that you are so fucking stupid! Go fucking kill yourself before you fuck up more people's lives. Seriously. Go die.
If you're stupid and not hurting anyone but yourself, that's fine, but if you're hurting other people and fucking with their lives because you're so goddamn stupid, you just need to go die. Do the rest of the world a fucking favor.
Whatever it is, you can get through it. I promise.
You're one of the only non-RYL people who I tell things openly & honestly but I feel like deep down you don't actually give a shit about me. & I know that once one/both of us no longer work here, I won't see or speak to you again.
You have absolutely no idea what you are doing do you?
You are blissfully unaware of the pain you are causing.
It's actually unbelievable how you can take this long, causing so much distress and upset because of something that *may possibly* happen in the event that i *may possibly* get unwell some time in the future.
Now you've decided i have to do this course because i am suddenly vulnerable and could have a spontaneous mental breakdown in 10 years time because of repressed memories that i am coping with and have done for years, but i am coping in 'the wrong way'. Which im not. My way of coping is getting on with things and not dwelling. I accept what happened, it was bad, crying about it now is not going to change that. That's how i cope. But according to you people, that's not a legit way of coping so i need more therapy. Can you not leave the mental health stuff to my mental health team?
You should probably learn to do your own jobs properly before you try and take on other people's.
I barely have time to breathe as it is.
And now I've unexpectedly got this stupid course and counselling on top of everything, I'm wondering if starting this degree was a good idea. I want to do it. I've missed my entire secondary education because of hospital (yet my intelligence doesn't appear to have suffered, oddly enough) and I want to have a future (depending on what happens in court) I enjoy education. I finished my HLC course 5 months early with 4 B's and 2 A's. Did it while 'unwell' in hospital.
You still think I'm stupid.
Truth is, I'm probably more intelligent you are, at least I can fucking spell.
Ugh going to try and pretend today never happened.
Really need to sort my life out somehow.....well....get a life more like.
Cant rely on people in life, one day they all fuck off in turn
I have no choice but to move on now.
I should of already but I don't know how.
And the worst part is she's right and the problem here is all me
#pathetic.
