I think I have a major crush on you... well actually, I know I do! But it is for ALL the wrong reasons... you are my D patch. It is so wrong the way I feel about you... you are unavailable, married with 2 kids and 16 years older than me... yet I do not see your age! You are so different. I wish you were more my age, living in my country and not married... but then I am so insane that I probably wouldnt want you if you were available! Why cant I stop thinking about you? I need to get a grip but your attention is addictive!
How can life be so hard? How can one man be struck with so much misfortune? I'm in tears now, because I lost her, and even though it's been 6 years that have passed, it still feels like yesterday. i just feel like crap right now.
Don't talk to me as if you know what my relationship is like, making me sound like I smother my boyfriend and that I don't give him space. That shit just makes my head worse and you fucking know that.
I can't forgive what you've done. It's been over a year, and my opinion hasn't changed.
I really really wish you wouldn't flirt with me when I KNOW nothing is going to come of it. Cos everytime you do, it hurts so much more when I have to remind myself, whatever the situation, you have a child, and a partner. But goddamn, I wish you were available.
All that we see or seem
is but a dream within a dream.
I honestly and truly wish I had never fucking laid eyes on you you even nasty piece of filth! I hate you with every fibre of my being and I cant get your smug smile out of my head. I need to get you out of my dreams it has been 6 years PLEASE leave me alone!!!!!
S: I wish you could text me to see how I am, ask about meeting up, something. I feel like I always have to make that first move & like I just bug you. I don't want to feel like an inconvenience, which I probably am.. I just want to feel wanted as your friend. & I could do with your support right now.
N: I know you're probably sick of me, but I just want a hug today. I'm backing off, not texting you, being careful not to tell you things about how horrible it all is at the moment, etc.. Because I don't want to push you away. I just need to know you still care through it all.
M: I'm sorry, I lied. I was at A&E, not G's house.
K: Sorry I didn't get round to reading your essay for you. I was going to do it tonight, but you handed it in early. To be honest, I'm so unsure of myself and everything I do at the moment that the corrections probably have taken me hours and been wrong anyway. I'm a rubbish sister, sorry. :(
G: I'm sorry I don't talk to you, even when you ask if I'm okay. I guess I figure that you probably can't handle it because you seem so fragile about EVERYTHING.
M: I'm sorry that I tell you things that you probably don't want to hear, but I've not got many other people & from time to time I need to tell you these things. I don't know why. Thank you for letting me go home the other day. I wouldn't have coped otherwise. & if I end up getting signed off work at some point soon, I'm sorry, but trust me - if it comes to that, you'll be better off without me in the office.
A, M & G: I know I'm not going to have anything to contribute in the meetings on Thursday. I'm fucking useless at the moment & I can't help it. I hope that you've got some ideas else we're screwed.
J: Thank you for being there for me lately and texting me regularly and things, I really appreciate it. I've needed it.
A: I still miss you. & I know I've been useless & probably hurt your feelings or whatever, but you've hurt me too.. I miss you in spite of everything.
J: Please be okay. & control your money. I'm worried but there's not much I can do. :(
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
i swore i wont ever betray you again, and i mean it.
i dont trust anyone else but you anymore.
i really really dont. ive told you everything except 3 things.
i cant tell you those but im all yours.
please stop this punishment. i know i wont last.
if your going to keep going, just, get rid of me completely.
brain dead is the last way i ever want to live.
please dont let that be my punishment
Sing me to sleep.
I'll see you in my dreams.
Waiting to say.
I miss you.
I'm so sorry.
