My brain's already gone into self destruct mode but I'm going to fight it and prove to you that you can trust me to be good. Prove that I can be an adult and survive healthily on my own.
This is going to be so hard....
I know you can do it. Believe in yourself like we do.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I know you can do it. Believe in yourself like we do.
Thank you <3
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Will you please just make up your sodding mind and give me some definite plans to plan around. Telling me it's on then off then on then off then on again, is just fecking with my AD. I feel so dizzy and selfish. So horrifically selfish. I cannot explain the hatred I have for myself, that's why I want to carve it into my fecking skin.
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Just be my friend. That's all I need. I need you to understand, I need you. And I know you could, if only you knew what I'm going through. But I don't want to be a burden..not when you're suffering too. And if you were happy(which of course, is what I want), I wouldn't want to make you unhappy with my unhappiness. I really hate myself. And you're perfect. But you hate yourself too...
I am tired ok so fucking tired and i desperately wish you could see it
I feel so alone and i thought you cared enough to maybe talk to me occasionally but obviously i was wrong
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Just be my friend. That's all I need. I need you to understand, I need you. And I know you could, if only you knew what I'm going through. But I don't want to be a burden..not when you're suffering too. And if you were happy(which of course, is what I want), I wouldn't want to make you unhappy with my unhappiness. I really hate myself. And you're perfect. But you hate yourself too...
*hugs*
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Originally Posted by l.e.g.o
I am tired ok so fucking tired and i desperately wish you could see it
I feel so alone and i thought you cared enough to maybe talk to me occasionally but obviously i was wrong
*hugs* I'm here if you need anything feel free to PM me or something, I've seen you bopping about on the boards and such
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Originally Posted by ihateyourface
blehhhhhhhh.
please.
just.
go.
away.
and **hugs to oyu too** xxxx
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this is getting too much why can't hevean have a telephone or a post box or something, i miss you </3 xxxx
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"pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like your less than less than perfect"
"Don't ever change, you're perfect the way you are" only a PM away for ANYONE
Gem [smurfette] is my little sister and my princess <3
R.I.P. Keith....31/10/12....forever missed
R.I.P. Lewis....18/01/13....forever I'll love you, forever missed
I wish you hadn't started to talk to me when you were OBVIOUSLY drunk, I know that I'm strugglign with college and work, I need help but not from you as you don't underttand no matter how many times you say put it in english for me, I wont want you to do that cause even though it was my idea, i dont feel stupid when i say it, when you say it, you make me feel stupid, i dont need that right now.
Doesn't help, I need you lovely, I need you, but, I can't have you, you're in the skies now, you're safe, but I need you, please, if hevean had a telephone or a letter box that'd be awesome right now as I really need oyu, I need your advice and you're help and to be able to come to you and have hugs and be told everything's going to be okay, I need just need to be held.
I miss you
xxxxxx
"pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like your less than less than perfect"
"Don't ever change, you're perfect the way you are" only a PM away for ANYONE
Gem [smurfette] is my little sister and my princess <3
R.I.P. Keith....31/10/12....forever missed
R.I.P. Lewis....18/01/13....forever I'll love you, forever missed
My Suck-Ass Manager,
I haven't had a weekend off since August. Not one Saturday. Not one Sunday. And when I ask to take one Saturday off because I seriously need time to work on school projects and honestly, I feel like I'm going to spontaneously combust if I have to bag one more fucking grocery item, and then you tell me no because my request isn't "important enough", well you can go to hell for all I care.
“In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.”- Robert Frost
i'm going to get off the ground from this, and from you, and from every lie you've spun at me. you won't belittle me, and you won't get the better of me or the upper hand.
Am I supposed to be feeling like an investigator in some kind of psychological thriller, in which I get to the end and suddenly realise what caused all my problems and how I can recover? No? Then why is it all set up to feel this way, when it doesn't change anything or doesn't give me any answers?
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