"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
sorry ive not been around for a while darling but im back now, always here if you want to talk, can text me if you want/need too will always reply darling.
If I get angry then she gets angry back at me
In the past this has resulted in slaps and hits and when i was younger trying to strangle me
Its scary
Her words tell me how awful and evil i am
They break me to pieces
Remind me of all the crap i am
I just dont know what to do
I cant cope
My flashbacks are awful
I'm having problems piled on me by her
I feel close to tears all the time
I'm sorry
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
im sorry that she does those things to you if you get angry darling its not right she shouldnt slap or hit you, but your not crap sweetheart.
im sorry your flashbacks are awful i no how bad they can be, im always here for you if you need to talk just text me darling.
please just remember your not crap or any of bad things your a loving caring person whos struggling just now.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
I'm really struggling
My physical health has become poor
and I really cant do what I need to help me get better because my mental health is getting in the way
I can't explain it and I know noone will be able to help me
Its too personal to write here what is going on really
I guess this is really a very pointless post
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Jo, I'm sorry everything is still so difficult and that you're physically as well as mentally unwell. I'm always here if you need anyone to talk to, but please look after yourself darling. Love and hugs and glitter xxxxx
"And sometimes when our fights begin,
I think I'll let the Dragons win...
And then I think perhaps I won't,
Because they're Dragons, and I don't."
Sorry only just seen this
Thank you
Was lovely meeting you
sorry
I'm really struggling today which i guess is per usual but hey...
Sorry to keep moaning
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Could really do with some support right now
Am feeling very alone
Flashbacks bad and paranoia and anxiety
Sorry know i'm being very selfish right now and not supporting others very well if at all so i know i dont deserve any support really
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
you do deserve support *hugs* i don't know what to say at the moment to help, but i am thinking of you. things will get better, hang on tight *more hugs*
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
*hugs you tight* Jo, I just want to say that I really enjoyed meeting you on Saturday, and I really hope we get to meet up soon again because it would be awesome to get to get to know you better. I'm very sorry you're struggling so much right now. Has anything helped with the flashbacks before now? My only suggestion would be grounding at this moment but I see from earlier that that doesn't seem to help you very much. Are you with/could you go be with someone right now? Sometimes holding a person's hand can be a very good grounding technique particularly if there is no way they could have been in the flashback event.
That's quite a lot of writing there which might be a lot for you to take in while experiencing a flashback so I just want you to remember this:
You are safe now, in this moment and he cannot hurt you.
You are also not alone. We love you and care about you. I'm available to PM if it would help you feel more grounded to be talking to someone. I just wish I could be there to hug you in person!
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
Thank you for your replies
This response may take a bit of time to write so i apologise if its disjointed
Erm i have tried grounding and when i did therapy we tried practicing but i was useless at it (this was backed up by therapist so i'm allowed to say it and it is true) the only way i got through flashbacks during sessions was her literally talking me through it and holding my hand
The thing is i dont have anyone who can do that for me really
I have noone in my life
I have friends yes but they are friends that are either dealing with enough of their own things (and i know these people and they are amazing to me and would and do so much for me but i cannot put on them its not fair) or friends who when i ask for support dont want me around
My family are well... I think i've said before
I feel so alone i dont know what to do
All that i have is self harm
Its always there for me its something i can concentrate on and engage myself in
I'm sorry if this sounds wrong
I know i am a bad and horrible person
I'm sorry
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
hi darling, ive not got many wrds just now but just wanted to say your not a bad horrible person and you do deserve help, im stillhere for you anytime darling justsend me a text.
