I'm working on building up the courage to start posting here again because I think I need the support. I'm sorry for abandoning you all and for being so horrendous at keeping in touch. I love you all and think of you often.
I'm just going to pretend that you don't exist. I can keep this up for a hell of a long time, you know. You've taught me how to not listen to people, so I've a lot of experience to draw upon. Bitter and childish, I may be, but I cannot stand to be around you both right now.
I had a dream last night that I came in here posting how my Mom had died and how I was never going to see her again and how I would miss all these things about her and it makes me want to cry. Why would I dream something like that? I was so scared in the dream about losing her, it was horrible.
how do all of you not see that i just want this to be over with? and how can you not see that im still hurting just as much as i always have? and why cant i do anything that will make me happier? WHY?!
Thought you said you'd call... that was over 3 hours ago :/ And there's only an hour left until I have to go. Not even that, considering I still have to get ready.
I... I thought you cared :/
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Pleasepleaseplease be there tonight. I really want my sister to meet you. It's something important to me. Ugh... I just wish my dad was ok with everything. I'm too scared to tell you what he said though >.<
Really hope you don't stop, too... it feels so good. That was my first. It felt good, and just sitting there with you like that felt good too. I mean, I can understand some of your concerns, but I really don't agree. You're not going to Hell for hugging your girlfriend. Why can't you see it that way...
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
I'm really sorry that I've been having all of the mood issues, I hope very much that it doesn't come across as at you. I am and have been so grateful/happy to have you here, I really have. I'm just not very well at the moment, but that doesn't excuse me being a shit host. I'm going to miss you when you go, I hope you forgive me.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
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