Say here what you can't say to someone/Get something off your chest-new rules post 1

[MeganAlmighty]

I really want to make this future for myself and i want to go far and actually live the things that i dream of but i don't know if i can ever stop self harming even if i only do it minor and sometimes. I can still do what i want and self harm sometimes, too. So, please don't look at me like that when you find evidence of a bad day and please don't keep saying stuff like, ''you need to stop this now because it's getting to be a regular occurance again and you're gonna end up slipping right back down again''.

I won't slip as far as I did because i'm stronger than I was in a lot of ways.

I don't want your dissapointment for the rest of my life so you need to not feel like that when i do things to my body.

Please, understand that when i self harm, it doesn't always mean that i'm sad/angry/seeing or hearing things again/or feeling like i need to be punished. I just want to do it sometimes. It doesn't mean i'm ill/getting ill again.

I really want to live my dream, I really really really do but sometimes I just don't know how. On days when i like life and feel realatively optimistic i sometimes just don't know how to live it or how to be or where to go or how to say things or how to do things. But i do want to live

[Rodolphus]

My head is going fucking mental about this.
Did you ever actually want me?

[brittasaur]

i still feel guilty about last night. i shouldn't have done it, and then there you were after the fact, and the look on your face sort of said it all. i'm going to try harder. if i can go 3 months, i can go longer.

i'll never be close enough to deserving you, but i have you. so here's to hoping i can keep it that way. everyone else's bullshit aside, you're the only person i trust anymore. i've lost friends, and people close to me, and in part it was all me that went off course to begin with, but somehow despite everything you can still sit there and tell me that you love me. you never did give up on me, or toss me aside when i was being ridiculous. and you're right, i'm almost always being ridiculous but you understand me and you're patient and i was an idiot for ever thinking i could find that outside of you.

and you're probably wondering what i'm doing, and why i'm not talking to you and writing you this on something you'll never read ._. i am ridiculous.

[M.Shadows]

I really need you all right now but I have caused too much pain and heartache - can I come back to you? I don't know. I'm sorry for all I did, for my words and my actions. I need you right now but I don't deserve you. I think tonight might be a long one.

[brittasaur]

smart girl. lets see if i can do the same.

[[Luna]]

I wish I could make you see how beautiful and amazing you are. I love you so much, I wish I knew what to do to make you happy again. I love you and I always will xx

[MunchBox]

I can't bring myself to make the appointment.

[[Awakening]]

Why don't you see we need to case load in order to gain trust and give the best care?! Your missing the point and that is so fucking depressing.

[Gone.]

I swear I'm a mental case. One minute I'm pro-recovery, the other, I am completely the other way.
I need to get a handle on this.

[Cryptic.]

If only people knew just how evil I am.
Perhaps then I wouldn't even need to kill myself.

[Catharsis]

go away scars.

[Tig]

I need you, and not emotionally, physically. I can't have this operation if I don't have somebody to look after me afterwards and we both know how much I need this operation.

I'm scared.

[YodaBearInterrupted]

I hate that you are never there. I don't understand how you can just abandon me all the time. you have no idea how crushed and depressed I get when you go down there all the time. All I wanted was your love, to hear how I am good and doing well in your eyes... too bad I never get it... it hurts to see you choose favoritism and choose them over me

[Heaven Knows]

The God's honest truth in all of this is; I do not plan on being here to see the end of July. I do not want to be and I'm terrified what being here is going to do to me. I'm scared to live but damn I'm even more scared of myself right now. I have no one.

[MunchBox]

It won't bloody stop.

[[Luna]]

I just want to talk about this with someone that actually understands. I may have gained weight, I may not be the lowest bmi but all the same thoughts are still there. I got to my highest weight before uni through binging and purging and now I've been working my ass off getting it all back off again. The behaviours are 'escalating' apparently but i'm not the right weight. I'm not good enough. No one takes you seriously when you look like this.

[[Luna]]

STOP SCREAMING AT US! STOP SHOUTING AND WHINING! JUST STOP SCREAMING AND GO TO BED, YOU'RE MAKING ME WANT TO KILL MYSELF!
Please just shut up and go to sleep. I honestly cannot handle you screaming anymore.

[amylee]

i wish i loved you back...

[M.Shadows]

I'm sorry.

[Gone.]

I think it's the fact that you don't think you've done anything wrong that upsets me the most.