My Dad attempted suicide tonight..... I need some support right now
So i have been sick... well recently but sick previously... no one here knows me very well but i have been here... been suicidal, self harmed all of that.....
anyways.. so tonight i was out babysitting and when i got home my aunt and mum pull me into the loung with the whole "we need to talk to you" i get told that my dad went missing and took some poison but came home and is on his way to hospital...
i new dad was a little grumpy but not that grumpy... mum has recently been in a mental health unit and now dad will be spending time in hospital.
I am tired and upset and just need some help
my head is spinning. I just feel guilty for all of the times i have threatened and self harmed and stuff.
I cant speak to anyone from my MH team until wednesday
* hugs* am so sorry about your dad i went through the same with my dad he tried a few time to kill himself and he did kill himself in September of this year .
Its hard thing to go through when your parent isnt well because of mental health some times you feel as if you will never know when there going to try again and unsure weather they are ok .
I hope your dad gets the help that he needs and i hope that you will be ok
Pm me anytime if you need to talk
Hey,
Sorry to hear you are going through this.
I am really low on words right now but I just wanted to say that I read this and I care <3
If you ever need someone to talk to, please feel free to PM me.
*leaves hugs*
x Katie x
Hi,
I'm so sorry for you. Please don't blame yourself for your father attempting suicide, it's not your fault.
Do you have a friend or someone you can call until wednesday ?
Take care of yourself.
-- English is not my mother-tongue, so I apologize for any spelling/grammar mistake --
*hugs* I'm sorry things are so difficult right now :/ That's terrible. How are you coping? I hope you're alright, and that you'll be ok for Wednesday when you can talk to your MH team.
Hang in there... send a PM if you need<3
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
I'm glad you have support until you can talk to your MH team, and I'm glad your dad was released ok. You can get through this dear, we're all here to support you. <3
"It's not a dream anymore. It's worth fighting for."
"Well, if it's not real you can't hold it in your hands
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it.
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh, even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah" - Paramore
I'm really sorry to hear this news but I'm glad that your father is at least alive and safe now. I imagine you must be feeling really overwhelmed but with the right support, you and your family can get through this. To take as much from the situation as possible, it's probably a good thing that you and your mother have both experienced mental health problems because at least you will be able to understand what your father is going through right now; you'll probably be able to offer him more support than if you hadn't. You will also know the mental health system very well and this will enable you to ensure your father is getting the right help he needs. I know that it's hard to see any positivity in this situation but thank God your father came home and found the medical help he needed before it was too late; this shows that, whilst there's obviously a part of him that wants to die, there's also a big part of him that wants to live, and so there's hope here.
It's important to be there for your father right now and supportive in his efforts of recovery but you must also look out for yourself. There's no easy way to deal with the mixed emotions you'll be feeling right now - fear, anger, confusion, abandonment - and you need to be gentle with yourself. You've been through a trauma yourself and it's important that you talk this through with someone on your mental health team Wednesday. You're probably rationally aware that this was not your fault but you hinted that you're feeling some guilt because of the times you've felt suicidal or self harmed. Having been in that position yourself before, you will understand that suicide is more to do with ourselves and feeling like we cannot manage the pain we're feeling than it is with those around us. We all cause our families grief now and again but there is more to this suicide attempt than anything you may or may not have done, so don't run away with the idea that you are in anyway responsible. You know we're always here for you if you ever need a chat - please don't ever feel lonely.
Take care, honey - my thoughts are with you and your family.
I wanted to remember this forever, you, us. I wanted to remember this and I was scared I wouldn’t, so I took a knife and I carved you into my arm and at night I’d put it under my head to keep you close. Your heartbeat next to mine, your name against my eyes. I carved you into my skin so you’d never leave and now I can’t get rid of you no matter how hard I try.
