I cant frickin believe that i just SI'ed im an soooo pissed off with me right now and just really want to keep going, keep SI'ing. im so confused what am i ment to do?
hey, i know how much it sucks right after you SI, and you feel like crap, or think, 'why did I just do that?' or the feeling that one is not good enough.
Don't be angry with yourself though, you have to understand that this is a coping thing, and try to get at why you have to do it it to begin with. For me, stopping SI is a constant, daily thing, and that only way to really do it is to not dwell on the times we slip up. Just think about tomorrow, and starting a new day.
"It is the stretched soul that makes music, and souls are stretched by the pull of opposite – opposite bents, tastes, yearnings, loyalties. Where there is no polarity – where energies flow smoothly in one direction – there will be much doing, but no music."
Do you know what caused you to SI? Maybe if you can find the problem, you can work on a solution.
It's been a few hours since this was posted... how are you feeling now? If you still want to hurt yourself, do you have any distaction methods?
Don't be too upset with yourself for giving in. It's never a good thing, but there's always another try.
Hope you're ok. *hugs*
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
Aw, I know how you feel and I hate that feeling :/ <3 was that the first time you've ever hurt yourself because it kind of sounds like it. If so, please they not to do it again, because the more you do it the harder it is to stop trust me. It's so incredibly addictive, you do not want to go down that road <3
I know you want to keep doing it, but if you keep doing it, then it will never stop. It's a continuous, addictive cycle and it doesn't solve any problems, you just have to remember that and find some other way to cope, you know? <3
PM me if you wanna talk, dear <3
"I believe in running through the rain and crashing into the person you love and having your lips bleed on each other"
Thank you for the support. i feel like carp still and i will SI again i just feel it. It was triggered but the doctors appoinment tonight that i am awaiting. im really scared and think he will hospitalise me. It is not the first time, I have be SIing for almost 6 years now but i managed to stop for 6 months then all this **** started happening and i SI again then i didnt for a month and now today i did again.
How did your doctor's appointment go? I think it's good you were able to go that six months, then the other month without harming. Those are already accomplishments :) I'm sure you'll be able to make it much longer as well.
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
