You confuse me. You frustrate me so much, yet I like the feeling. You're so stubborn, so dumb, so you....you're unique, you're not like anyone else I know. I can see us having huge arguments and passionate make up sex. That is, if you would leave that stupid church school, and come here with me instead. ;) Except I can also see you hooking up with a bunch of other chicks too. Could you commit? Have you? I'm just honestly curious. I can't see us in love, but I can see us together. I wish I knew that you hadn't really left, before I left for Twin Falls. It would have been cool to add you to my list of booty call guys. I keep wondering though...was it you that fucked me up like this? I believed in relationships and shit like that, until...well after you, everything really started rolling downhill. But no, I think D started it, and you could have saved me, but you had no way of knowing that, and so you didn't...but I think you could have saved me, if you were someone else...but no, you're you. And maybe it was fate somehow...I know for sure I would be a different person if you had been a different person...
Whatever it is, you can get through it. I promise.
Today wasn't horrific, but because of what happened this year, something has got to happen to me. I'm so sorry for disappointing you but I'll get what I deserve very soon.
you'll find better love.. strong as it ever was.. deep as the river runs.. warm as the morning sun.. at least thats what she told you.. just please remember me kyler.. you dont have to believe her you dont
I am not doing it for myself, I am doing it for them!
Love and miss them like crazy
Noone can see your tears when you walk in the rain
Join Date: Oct 2010
Location: The most boring place on earth?
I am currently:
I shouldn't have left you for him, he hasn't been good to me much... maybe a little better but not by much... I haven't heard from him once today. He doesn't even care that I'm sick, He doesn't care that he's hurting me... I hate this choice but i just can't get away now.
The beer spills in a disgusting puddle and the glass becomes nothing but fragments of a rainbow.
This circle ain't starting up again. If you have a problem with HIM you talk to him about it. I'm going to tell you what you've told me countless times. You've made your bed, and now you lay in it.
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Teeny bit scared.
Shall go out to shop now. Because, if I stay, I think I'll try to purge. Which is stupid. For so many reasons. Like, having only eaten X calories today.
Freakshow.
All the shit's just hit my head now. It's going crazy and I can't stop thinking.
But it's okay. I'm good. I'm better. I swear to cheese that I'm going to be safe.
I just... I can't stop thinking about my mother. And it's hurting.
But it's okay. I'll be okay. I'm being okay.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Thank you for being honest, I'm sorry I didn't tell you until you rang me. It was fucking with my head & I shouldn't have let it. Last night was just bad anyway. I think I'm going to miss you even more going on holiday....
