Contains sexual abuse - desperately in need of help/opinions

[Winchester Angel]

there's this girl i know (i work with her) she invited me to a party and i went on thursday. (it was for her birthday). i had only had 2 drinks but i must have passed out because i woke up naked in bed with her next to me and i cant remember anything. she says we had a foursome with 2 other guys but i only had 2 drinks that wouldnt have made me pass out. i think she spiked my drink and then "took advantage" when i asked her what happened she told me that i deserved what i got because of how i was acting, i dont remember acting any differently than someone having a drink at a party. if anything i was more reserved because i dont much like crowded places she convinced me to go said she wanted me to so i did and now she tells me im disgusting and fat and ugly.

im getting eaten up by not being able to remember what happened, i dont know what to do. work is hell being there with her she seems to be everywhere i turn, i dont know what to do.

did she do something bad, i dont even know i mean, girls dont do that do they oh my god how naive and stupid do i sound im sorry.

i cant cope with this cant cope with the thought of what they might have done..... it hurts so much

sorry

[onepapergirl]

that sounds like an awful situation.
i guess my immediate reaction would be that a girl wouldn't do that either, but from how you described her acting it sounds likely.
no matter who spiked your drink, what happened wasn't your fault. you didn't do anything to deserve it.

[Winchester Angel]

i confronted her today and she slapped me across the face, there wasnt anyone else around so i cant even report her at work for it. she said she cant believe i would be so f*cked up as to say she would spike my drink and then do that, she said i was really drunk and loving it.... so i dont know what to think anymore

[l.e.g.o]

hun you know your limits
she will say your lying as she is scared
hugs you tight

[Winchester Angel]

i cant remember anything, i dont know what actually happened, she does and she cant even tell me. its all my fault

[l.e.g.o]

no its nto hun

[onepapergirl]

I agree. From what you said, it doesn't seem you were drunk enough to have blacked out. There may be a chance it wasn't her, but I do believe someone drugged you.
It really isn't your fault.