Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the songs we used to sing
In the car, do you remember, butterfly, early summer?
It's playing on repeat, just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
To make you mine, stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious
You and me, flesh to flesh
'Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, what's your fantasy?
What's your, what's your
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
To make you mine, stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
♪♫ I'm Learning To Be Brave In My Beautiful Mistakes ♫♪
Have you ever been so lonely,
No one there to hold?
Pull me in or disown me,
And then climb inside.
My arms are open wide.
Have a look inside.
It is not that I am scared to learn,
Why I'm empty inside.
hold my hand or show some concern,
If I live or die.
My eyes are open wide.
Help me look inside.
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so ****ing far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
First the mic, then a half cigarette
Singing "Cathy's Clown"
That's the man that she's married to now
That's the girl that he takes around town She appears composed, so she is, I suppose
Who can really tell?
She shows no emotion at all
Stares into space like a dead china doll
I'm never going to know you now
But I'm going to love you anyhow
Now she's done and they're calling someone
Such a familiar name I'm so glad that my memory's remote
Because I'm doing just fine hour to hour, note to note
Here it is, the revenge to the tune
"You're no good,
You're no good, you're no good, you're no good"
Can't you tell that it's well understood?
I'm never going to know you now
But I'm gonna love you anyhow
I'm here today and expected to stay on and on and on
I'm tired
I'm tired
Looking out on the substitute scene
Still going strong
XO, Mom
It's ok, it's all right, nothing's wrong
Tell Mr. Man with impossible plans to just leave me alone
In the place where I make no mistakes
In the place where I have what it takes
I'm never going to know you now
But I'm going to love you anyhow
I'm never going to know you now
But I'm going to love you anyhow
I'm never going to know you now
But I'm going to love you anyhow
Now we look up in
(tell me who, tell me who)
To the eyes of bullies breaking backs
They seems so very tough
(it's a lie, it's a lie)
They seem so very scared of us
I look into the mirror
(look into)
For evil that just does not exist
I don't see what they see
(tell them that, tell them that)
Trying to control the pull of one magnet to another
I always stood behind you always close
stood by your side no matter what the cost
and I always was there for you when you called
should I live all my life for only your cause
What about my life
What about my dreams
What about how I feel
What about my needs
I cant hold back, I cant go back, I must be free
What about how I feel
What about my life
Close enough to start a war,
All that I have is on the floor,
God only knows what we're fighting for,
All that I say, you always say more,
I can't keep up with your turning tables,
Under your thumb, I can't breathe,
So I won't let you close enough to hurt me, No, I won't rescue you, you to just desert me,
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
To turning tables,
Under haunted skies I see you, ooh,
Where love is lost, your ghost is found,
I braved a hundred storms to leave you, As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down,
I can't keep up with your turning tables,
Under your thumb, I can't breathe,
So I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you, you to just desert me,
I cant give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
Turning tables,
Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own savior,
When the thunder calls for me,
Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own savior,
Standing on my own two feet,
I won't let you close enough to hurt me, No, I won't rescue you, you to just desert me,
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables,
To turning tables,
Turning tables, yeah,
Turning, no, ooh.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
I promised [to my wife and children]
I'd never touch another drink
as long as I live
but even then
it sounds so soothing
to mix a gin
and sink into oblivion
