Contains alcohol - d&a worker still on leave - know I'm out of control

[lozza]

I dont know what to do anymore. I am drinking so much it is not funny and I dont know how to stop it my d&a worker has already been away for most of march and she wont be back at work until 18th april but I dont know how much more my body can take. My drinking was this bad right before I had my first detox last Oct and now I am back here again!!!!!

I dont what to do. Part of me feels its not even worth fighting anymore

I just dont know!!!

[dontwantyoutoknow]

I don't have words, but I'm here Loz. Always here. xxx

[-Rainbow-]

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[lozza]

yeh I know its you -unself- and thankyou. although I did freak out when I saw you had replied cuz well I am scared of you 'dobbing me in'

saw my pdoc today. she is thankful I am drinking as its disracting me from attempting suicide again

I dont know anymore. Meds changing again.
When will all this just end?