I am terrified too. I've told a couple of people that know about my SH that I come on a support site, and one of them knows the name, but if they found out who I was on here, I think I would flip out. And the people who dont know about my SH, I'm completely and totally terrified of them finding out I'm here, but I find that being here helps, even though I'm scared of someone finding out.
"Wish that I could cry,
Fall apon my knees,
Find a way to lie,
About the home I'll never see"
Superman by Five For Fighting
I would be worried if any of my mates came on this site and spotted me , yes. My family, not really, must know about my past problems and the amoutn of times i have forget to go onto google or nipped to the loo , shut my door and my mum has come in i have lost count how many times shes has done that.
meh.
when i didnt have my own pc, i used to sit on my dads pc [he has massive screen - talking about 30 inch..] & people used to walk backwards & forwards all the time.. dont bother me really..
Thats funny you should post this cause I often think about this. This girl at work gave me a very odd look one time and I automatically thought "holy sh*t, she knows!". Seeing as my name is my real first name and the digits of my birthday and on my profile it says what state im from, it wouldn't be too hard for someone to know its me.
I sometimes wish someone would find out... I don't know why maybe cause it would be nice for someone to care for once.
I let others define me because their words hurt less than my own.
I used to worry about it, but at this point I think it would be more of a relief for me. I want to tell people about my problems so badly, and I just haven't been able to do it :c
It did worry me more when I was still living at home though, because I wouldn't want my mother to see what I was writing.
My parents, siblings and a few friends know I'm on here and they are ok with it, as they all know how difficult i find it to express myself to people in real life.
Sometimes I worry my counsellor knows I'm on here, and she's read all the stuff I've written about her :/
I worry that people I know might read the stuff I've written about them!
It is a massive worry for me but I don't think anyone I know does actually use this, sight. I may have accidentally left it on my computer once or twice but I usually delete history and switch off the screen very quickly when people walk in the room at home.
Being at uni, the worry is somewhat lessened.
I wonder what people would think if they knew what I was saying about life, the universe and everything on here...
I worry a bit about it but then its very easy to stay annoymous (sp?) on this forum if thats what you want.
I do wonder what people would think if they read some of what I write heer though.
I was terrified of that to. thats why i didnt put my whole name on. then two of my friends really needed a place like this so i told them to.. It was really hard when they starting finding out all my secrets. even harder wen I had to stop using this so they cudnt read stuff.
I used to not be so worried, but until someone from here sent my rants to my sister, I've been very worried about what I do post, I feel more vulnerable & unsafe, & not able to express myself like I used to round here.
Na mother and all family things know I'm on here. Well Actually dunno about my cousin and auntie but if it came up I'll say yeah its a website that helps me. :)
I was really really scared at one point think about 3 years ago my parents would find me on here but yeah.
Last edited by RainbowsAndButterflies : 11-02-2011 at 01:22 AM.
I am now not going to use this account as my main one from now on.
If you want my new account PM me. xxx
Not worried, basically my whole family know about RYL and since I dont self harm anymore they know I'm here to moderate etc now.
Actually I first joined RYL when a friend told me about it and a few months later my dad had been googling self harm support and told me about it as well and I told him I had already joined!
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
If it's any consolation, I'm 50% sure that my Mum has been given my account name. It's natural to be paranoid about it though so try not to worry, it's like going to the doctors to get penis cream - you just hope nobody notices :)
To say I'm completely devoid of morals, would be harsh. Although I would have to admit I find it difficult to give a ****.
