Say here what you can't say to someone/Get something off your chest-new rules post 1

[Opus.]

I'm scared.

[GoldDustReturnz]

I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you



I just. love you.

everything about you. Seriously. You're so amazing. 10 minutes ago I was filled with just numb & ready to just explode. and then, just. What.
You mean the whole world to me. The whole fucking world. I hope one day you realise how fucking amazing & loved & beautiful you are, you can give so much to so many people & I just need you in my life always, its getting to the point where I feel like trying for you, you make my tummy all fuzzy & you are seriously one of the nicest genuine lovely amazing people I know. I fucking love you.

[Ardea]

you promised to be here for me. i need you.
you said you loved me. but you don't care at all anymore.

you know what i'm doing and you never make an effort to help me.
you left me wondering what i did wrong.

so i'll keep on cutting.
i'll watch the blood.

beecause what's the reason not to?

[Ardea]

fuck you roger.
you killed me.

[on edge]

Quote:

Originally Posted by getting_by

I collapsed in a club the other night... Drink and meds dont mix... The problem is- It felt good...

your right baby drink and meds dont mix. it may of felt good baby but it doesnt solve anything, thats what youve been telling me sweetie. not good baby not good. huggles tight. xx

[on edge]

Quote:

Originally Posted by getting_by

I'm Okay, I'm Okay, I'm Okay, I'm Okay, I'm Okay.
I'm Normal, I'm Normal, I'm Normal, I'm Normal, I'm Normal.
I'm in Control, I'm in Control, I'm in Control, I'm in Control, I'm in Control.
Everyone thinks like this, Everyone thinks like this, Everyone thinks like this, Everyone thinks like this, Everyone thinks like this.
Just smile, Just smile, Just smile, Just smile, Just smile.
Laugh it all away, Laugh it all away, Laugh it all away, Laugh it all away, Laugh it all away.
No one will ever know, No one will ever know, No one will ever know, No one will ever know, No one will ever know...

BUT I KNOW BABY, im so sorry. talk to me please baby, im here for you, just please talk to me dont shut me out darling please. *holds you so very tight* xx

[on edge]

it feels like my body is shutting down, my pain has gone completely off the scale. i spent all night doubled up in agony and crying and yet still to scared to go to hospital because of what happened there. i think this has eventually beaten me.
if im to survive i have to try and believe i wont get hurt again by him or any other nurse or dr, but how do i do that.
maybe i just need to accept that this is it, it's over.

[Opus.]

I have so much I need to tell you, but I don't know how.

[Crayon,]

My body is shutting down again and i'm exhausted. You ask me why I do nothing? It's because during the day while you're at work all I do is exercise.
I say to you I'm getting better and going to 'therapy' but I'm only doing it so I don't disappoint you any further. In actual fact all I want to do is die, because then I don't have to deal with HIM and my body and the thoughts and everything that's just way too much right now. But I *have* to be okay, because I can't tear our family apart again.

[planemo]

I'm sick of this life now.
I don't wanna get better.
Anyone, anything out there who wants to see me fall, you can have your happiness at my expense.
Take it, my happiness, take it all.
What more can you take away from me after I have lost it all?

[JaffaCake.]

I'm losing you and it seems like you just don't want to tell me that you've found someone better. But not just better. Someone cleaner, someone more normal, someone who's exceptionally better at what I tried to do in the first place. I feel like I'm losing you when I need you the most because right now, I'm going under. I can't cope anymore. I need you to cuddle me and tell me you love me because right now, I don't think I believe you and you're only saying it to keep me okay. But I'm not okay. I was never okay. We were never okay. It was bound to go wrong somewhere and I think that somewhere is here. You don't need me anymore, so now, I have nothing to live for. You were my reason to survive but now, nothing.

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough and you had to look elsewhere.

[Sushi]

You know I'm scared of throwing up.

[rockaroni]

There are times when I genuinely question which you love more- me or your PC.

[ravenclaw]

you tell me to talk to you when i'm feeling 'bad' and i want to tell you but i don't want you to have to experiance those memories or go back to that place in time.
to the other person - it hard because your life is just becoming what you want it to be and i'm glad for you, i don't want you to worry about me and i don't want to get in the way of your happiness xx

[JaffaCake.]

I'm sorry I was never good enough for you.

[pridesangel]

i just told you what happened to me, how he came into my bed, how hard it was to get him out, how i almost died and how i am still scared... and all you have to say is that you dont want anything to do with me because im ALWAYS so down???? all you have to say is how there are soooo many possibilities to get help, but i just dont want any???? how i need to straigthen myself out???? that all i had to do i enjoy my life and think positive?????????????????????????????????

[Samzi]

I just want more.

[Athiri]

Everything you said, everything you cried in your drunken state.
I tried to let you know that that was I felt inside so often...
Its hard but we have to learn to deal with it. Learn to be strong.

The other things you said... Am I seeing into the future though? Is this what a broken heart looks like?
How the fuck am I supposed to deal with that? How is anyone?

[brittasaur]

(sigh)

it's like a revolving door or something.
lol.

[Opus.]

You are, and always will be, my best friend. The thought of you leaving me terrifies me. Please don't go. I can't do this without you.