I'm a performer (singer, I play in jazz band, concert band, etc, and I do a lot of theatre). And I suffer from horrible anxiety.
It's so hard sometimes I want to give it all up. But it's my passion. I'm a performer. I just don't know how to get past the anxiety and panic it causes me.
Hi guys, just poppin' in.
I'm in Wales at the moment (kind of a holiday) with my parents. However, i panic every time i leave my home but if i were to stay at home instead of going away with my parents then i would be all alone, which also triggers off panic attacks! It's like a vicious endless cycle of panicking and trying not to go into any 'danger zones' so not to trigger anything bad off...
GRR!
Anyway, how is everyone doing? I hope you guys are okay.
SheHasHope- It's strange, because I love to act too... And I get so, so anxious waiting in the wings, I sit and rock and try not to vomit. But when I'm on stage, as soon as I step into those lights and step into role- that's when I feel free, because I'm not scared. I'm not myself anymore. And the lights go down, and you're vulnerable again, you skitter away on the adrenaline kick until you crash again...
But you have to hold to that moment in the lights, because that'll be the memory to spur you on...
Grr. Crap time at the phycologist's atm. I'm supposed to have finished my sessions ages ago, but he keeps asking me to come back so he can 'keep an eye on me.' I don't like it. It scares me. I don't if he wants to diagnose me something else... People keep telling me that maybe he really just wants to keep an eye on me, and that's what I'm trying to do, but...
I don't know. Part of me does feel like something isn't right... In the day, I'm usually fine, good. I'm happy and I'm bouncy and full of energy and I just can't stop smiling and laughing or thinking of a thousand things and I don't know why- but I don't care. I love it. I love being the HAPPY one. :) It's just sometimes... Usually in the evening, sometimes just bad days when something happens... i just feel so down again. It's not like how I remember being depressed- that crushing feeling on your chest- it's more a sadness that surrounds you, carries you away, makes it hard to think of anything else...
I don't know- does anyone else feel like this?
I'm a performer (singer, I play in jazz band, concert band, etc, and I do a lot of theatre). And I suffer from horrible anxiety.
It's so hard sometimes I want to give it all up. But it's my passion. I'm a performer. I just don't know how to get past the anxiety and panic it causes me.
I can completely sympathise, I'm a musician, french horn, and performing is my life, its what I study and want to do as a career, but the anxiety that goes with it is unbearable, that I sometimes think I should pack it in, but when I am performing, or just performed, I know its my life and passion and that I couldn't imagine a life without it, so I learn to cope with and deal with the anxiety. I have a few things I do that can help to reduce my anxiety a bit or help control it so I can use it in a negative way. If you wanna chat about it, or know more just send me a PM.
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Hi everyone. I used to have terrible anxiety attacks which led to a fear of leaving the house. It was hell. I got a lot of help through counselling and am now a completely different person. Don't get me wrong, I can still have periods of intense anxiety and I suffer from depression, but I'm a lot better. Just wanted to let you know it can get better. There is hope. :)
After an nervous awards show, I was invited to an chinese - that didn't sell Chicken Chow Mein - ugh! Don't know why, but I was feeling tired during the whole damn event, until I got home and put headphones on? Not physically tired either, as I had everything I ordered?
Hey everyone :) I'm glad I discovered this thread. I have been diagnosed with panic disorder and things have been pretty difficult lately. I'm home from uni on break and have been too anxious to leave my room. Talking to my family is making me anxious for no reason. My friend keeps asking me to call her too but I get anxious when I am on the phone so I keep telling her I've been busy :( This is so frustrating.
I have been feeling so anxious lately.... it makes me feel so alone.... so I am happy that I found this thread....
I havent been able to get my head around if it is actually anxiety that i have or what, trying to read stuff doesnt seem to make sense with what i have or with what I am feeling....its weird and hard to explain....
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