Ok so first off, I have had bulimia (still hate saying it) for about 6 years... but lately I have noticed something, its only been a few days,but.. I have been starving myself too... I skip breakfast, skip lunch, have dinner but then throw it up, then don't eat anything for the rest of the day.. i have been drinking more water then usually, when my stomach feels too empty and i have been doing more exercise then normal (not too much, im not going crazy on the stuff) and I have lost weight since yesterday! I know this is bad.. Im kind of scared I will continue like this, I dont think i can handle 2 eating disorders, i feel enough of a freak as it is... I just, I want to stop i think.. I just dont know how, and I am afraid when I put the weight back on (which i know is easy to do, especially for me) im afraid it will make me worse, that i will try harder of something... What am I supposed to do? I need help...
Last edited by Shambles : 07-01-2011 at 09:41 PM.
Reason: Edited to remove numbers, please re-read the ED board rules
oh, sorry about the numbers.. i was in a bit of a rush :) and a lot has been happening lately, so maybe that could be it.. Umm, I can nto get professional help atm :) thanks for the hugs
Whatever happens I am there for you. I hope you can pull out of this spiral. I know you are strong enough to pull through this. You are a sweet, beautiful, amazing person.
*hugs*
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If you got a cat for one day, man I mean, if you, say, say, if you want a cat for 365 days, right you aint got him for 365 days, you got him for one day, man you know, you can say, oh man, you can cry about the other 364, man, but you're gonna lose that one day, man, and that's all youve got
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*hugs* i hope you're ok!
i'm not sure what else there is i can say :(. i'm glad you are getting professional help though. is that doing anything for you?
do you think you could try and put the weight back on slowly so it doesnt freak you out so much?
anyway- more hugs and wishes of luck
if you need anything you can always pm
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We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
No i am not getting help.. and it isnt the weight being off that bothers me, I am actually huge so, it is a good thing i was just scared that if i got the weight of too fast, and then it came back, i would try more despirate measures, and i am scared of what those may be.
