I just can't stand it anymore. My life is just. Ugh. I want to get amnesia and forget everything.
Molested twice when I was young, and now twice by my own father. I just can't take it anymore. I hate it. I'm so dirty. I hate people. I'm a dropout. I have so many problems I can't take it anymore. I can't tell my friends about this. Tomorrow I'll have to face my family again and pretend nothings happened. I used to admire my dad. God. Why. I just want to disappear.
Hey Stephani.
Sounds like you've had a really, really rough time of it, and it's totally understandable that you're struggling. The important thing to remember, though, is that none of this is your fault. It is not your fault that you were molested, and you're not dirty. You've been abused, and that is in no way your fault.
So what if you're a dropout? Education isn't for everybody. You have to find your niche, what you'll be amazing doing, and rock that. You can do that.
I think the most important thing right now is to talk to people. Find support from a counsellor or a therapist, or call a crisis line - and speak to a friend, if you feel brave enough. You don't have to express the words, but maybe write something down that you can just give to them? You need support right now, and you deserve to feel positive.
Don't give in - if you give in, you're letting your dad win. Hold on, fight, and become an amazing person. Please, though, find somebody to talk to. Maybe bear in mind a
crisis line or an
abuse support line?
Take care.
