I feel like crying.

worthless? · 20-10-2010, 10:30 PM

Basically, my depression is getting so bad I can't function.
I've been cutting

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times a day now, and even that doesn't seem like enough.
I can't even go to school anymore. I just can't do this.
& I want so badly to be 'normal', to live and breathe and feel hope.
but it's hard when you're covered in a blanket of darkness.
I don't know why I'm posting this, other than to have someone to talk to I guess.
Thanks for listening.
X

TheShade1989 · 21-10-2010, 12:07 AM

Do you have anyone you can tlk to? A professional or someone close to you who can help?

PassedExpectations · 21-10-2010, 03:06 AM

how are you feeling now? i know this is a bit late of a response....

i read in your intro thread thing that you've been adopted recently... do you feel comfortable talking to your parents about whats going on? i'm sure that they'd want to help you as much as they could.

maybe school would be easier if you could leave class for a bit if you got overwhelmed? you could work it out with your councelor to go have a bit of time (i have 10 min generally tops) to settle down...

crazykat · 21-10-2010, 11:25 AM

Do you have any professional support to help you get through this difficult time? Can you try and maybe set some things up for yourself to do. I know when your depressed it can be so hard to have any form of routine but it is so important. Even if it's just something small like making sure you get out of bed at a certain time or have a shower or go for a walk. Also it's probably a good idea to let school know what is going on with you so they can offer you extra support to help you get through school. Take care
Kat xxx

worthless? · 22-10-2010, 02:20 AM

I do have a therapist. She & I aren't exactly...close.
My parents and I don't talk much. It's hard for me.
All I have is my best friend. And while I was at school she informed me today that she's getting sent away to military school by her mom and his boyfriend.
I am feeling so lost :(

SheHasHope · 22-10-2010, 03:33 AM

I know just how you feel. I don't know what to say, but things do eventually look up. I still haven't found the up, but I know it's out there somewhere. Just keep the hope. Take care.