I miss you
I miss you SO FUCKING BAD
I look at pictures of you and ache
You were so beautiful
I wish I had kissed you
I hope I get your last letter soon
Love you girl
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I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry I scared you like that
I didn't know what else to do to stop you from getting hurt
I didn't mean to scare you so bad, so I just raised my voice...
I didnt know it would hurt you so much
I'm sorry if you're scared I'll hurt you more now
I promise I won't ever hit or touch you honey, I'm so sorry
I won't raise my voice to you anymore honey...
I hope you can really forgive me
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
You said i could phone if i needed you... I finally got the courage to phone today and you were too busy with your boyfriend to talk. Now i'm alone, struggling and have no where to turn.
don't.
I don't care if you were fucking joking
I really don't think you want to fucking push that line with me
it's not a smart thing to do.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I feel awful. I feel so guilty. I don't know what you expect from me. But chances are, it won't turn out how you'd hoped. I wish I'd just told you that I'm the 8th person on that list. But it's too late now. He never said no when M mentioned me. He just said that he'd only known me for as long as he'd been with her. What's worse is that I want more from him. I'll get it too. He said he felt guilty when he found out how much you liked me. But that's ridiculous. He doesn't feel guilty about cheating on her! I'm almost relieved that you're gone now. I'll talk to you soon.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
You undo me, you wonderful thing.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
Would it really have taken that much to say hello? You were supposed to be my best friend once, and now you turn your back on me so you don't have to say goodbye...?
Do I disgust you that much?
Even your parents and sister were friendly towards me. But not you...
Just because I'm gay it doesn't mean i'm any different. I'm still the same person you once loved. Or at least you said you did. I don't know what to believe anymore... :'(
I'm assuming since I've not heard back from you, or heard from either of the other 2, that you're going to leave me alone now. And d'you know what? It feels like a weight's been lifted off me; I'm so very relieved. I was sick of holding onto a tainted 'friendship' just for the sake of childhood memories, 95% of which I don't even remember. None of us are the same as we were 18 years ago and I'm through feeling guilty about letting go. You are NOT nice people and I won't stick around and wait for you to hurt me again. I have the most amazing bunch of people in my life and they're all I need now. Good luck to you all.
Oh and 7and8 months free tomorrow? Heckyes (Y)
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I hate this place. You make me sick, do you get that? YOU MAKE ME SICK! When i'm home, I start having fucking panick attacks when I hear you moving around downstairs, or whatever. I am starting to fucking pull out my hair because I CAN'T DEAL WITH YOU, and I have phantom itches all over my body, and I WANT TO RIP MY SKIN OFF, and I scratch myself bloody without even realising what I am doing until it's too late, just so I can DEAL. I hate being home. i'm fine in school, or when you're not at home. But when you're home, mom, YOU MAKE ME SICK!I wish I never had to go home anymore. I hate this so, so, so much. I want out. I want to get away from here.
I can't deal with this anymore, I just can't. I want to GET OUT NOW and never come back. I can't do my senior's year like this. I can't do this anymore.