I know I will have to eat at least a little bit and make my plate look dirty at the least and then there will be cake as well :/
Anyway, Im really not okay today for so many other reasons, period, 2 people havent called me, and its past the time they said they would, triggered by several things....
Please give me some encourgement to keep it down and not panic after cos this feels like the worst time to eat.
Good luck with this. I always find these sort of occasions hard as well.
Could you try as much as possible not to link all your stressors into one big thing? The friends not calling is a very different issue from the meal and it would be great if you could tackle JUST the meal tonight. Then tackle the friends issue at a different time. Then you will have a better chance of facing the issues as clearly and calmly as possible.
Hoping that it is not as hard as you are anticipating.
It went so so.
It went okay, but the aftermath is hard.
I ate more than my stomach can handle right now so Im in pain/bloated and feeling sick/ like its stuck in my throat [triggers me to want to purge, but I havent].
I didnt really eat much before hand but Im still stressing about the calories. Im terrified of what I might weigh now. I drank a lot of coke with it so thats probably not helped the bloating either :/
There was my partners 2yr old niece there so she sat on my lap a lot and kept me entertained! [distracted] lol
Thankyou all, I hope I feel better in the morning, I really cant wake up still feeling full, but I dont know if it happens to anyone else, but often I take a while to digest a big meal and can wake up bloated still? Is that normal?
Okay Im not okay.
I've been feeling like Im going to be sick ever since I ate dinner 6 hours ago.
I want to purge just to get rid of the feeling, I know it will make little difference to calories absorbed cos all the sugars will have gone in etc.
Im panicking, my hands are sweating. I just have to get this out. Chest is thumping.
I cant distract. I cant. :'(
Hey, how are you feeling now? Did you manage to resist the urges?
xx
"That is why, for Christ's sake,
I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong"
(2 Corinthians 12:13)
Im sorry if I was one of the people late to phone you last night if you meant me. I never realised that you expected me to have rung by a certain time. You can text anytime and I'll call you right back (providing I hear my ultra quiet mobile which I have to wear around my neck half the time!)
If I can do anything....
loves and hugs xxxx
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
No no, I didnt meant you honey. I would never expect a reply that late or immediatly. Its the councelling place I enquired to and some woman from a carers support network who said they'd call back days ago.
I ended up purging last night though. Partner didnt notice I dont think, but then I never know cos she used to be severely bulimic years ago, and her sense of smell is so much better than mine.
I havent eaten much today, I cooked something really healthy for lunch but left most of it. I just dont want to fill myself up and feel like I did last night.
Im sitting on the sofa now feeling sleepy and cold. I have felt lethargic and unmotivated all day, but I have done some housework. I would go out for a run but I just dont have the energy though Im probably being lazy cos frankly, fresh air would do me good.
Thankyou for all your replies. I really appreciate it xxx
