Triggering (Suicide) - +SI - Every day ?

[In_The_Darkness]

I really don't know what's appropriate and what isn't. I've had a look through the "What to and what not to post" thread but not sure if this is OK to post all not. Mods please feel free to edit out anything out of line.

Started self harming again after 20 weeks free last week. Since then I have done lots all over my body. Some deep and some shallow.

Don't want to get stitches. Hate A&E. Some kind of phobia for hospitals.

Got an emergency appointment tommorrow with some guy at CAMHS.

Didnt a few scratches on my wrist which is unusual for me. I usually stay away from there. Wanted to go deeper.

Counted all my scars and fresh cuts...I have around ----- in total. Not that many though if you bare in mind I've been self harming since around 3/4 years ago.

Yeah. I apologize again for what may be too much detail.

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[Amaryllis]

I'm sorry you've been hurting yourself so much lately. Is there anything that may have kicked this off?

[Opus.]

I wanted to point out that 20 weeks is fantastic, you've done so amazingly well. I know that you're struggling now, and I'm really sorry to hear that. I'm glad you've got an appointment with CAMHS - they can help you. Just keep trying.

Take Care
- Tre x

[In_The_Darkness]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Amaryllis

I'm sorry you've been hurting yourself so much lately. Is there anything that may have kicked this off?

No. Nothing at all. Btw thanks for editing my post...but I didn't like the "Counted all my scars and fresh cuts...I have around tons in total." part. Sounds like I'm boasting about it or something.

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Quote:

Originally Posted by TreLove

I wanted to point out that 20 weeks is fantastic, you've done so amazingly well. I know that you're struggling now, and I'm really sorry to hear that. I'm glad you've got an appointment with CAMHS - they can help you. Just keep trying.

Take Care
- Tre x

Thank you

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