i feel so out of control at the moment :( i am restricting so much i cant tell anyone cause i feel so guilty and embarrassed im still overweight but i am getting closer to my goal every day. today i was so hungry so i ate a wrap i felt so guilty afterwards cause i no i shouldnt of eaten it (how am i every going to get to my goal weight if i eat things that arent in my plan) i felt so guilty i went and made myself sick :( then i walked and brought a packet of smokes :( i havent smoked in three months im losing it and i dont know where to turn i cant tell anyone bout my eating cause i am overweight and they will laugh at me and tell me i need to lose weight or think im lying cause someone that doesnt eat is not overweight :(
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*Hugs* I'm so sorry. Hun, it's so much healthier to eat. If you want to lose weight, diet and exercise.
This isn't the right way.
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sweetie no one would laught they would take u seriously its not all about your weight , it will be about you eating habits and behavours towards food ect..... you arent a failure you should'nt feel bad for having somethink small just having that amount a day is a problem in its self
could youu try and talk to someone before it turns into even a more problem tc hugs
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To reassure you.. I am like you. I am overweight and often struggle with restrictive eating patterns and purging. I am lucky that in my life people (family and boyfriend and friends) are very supportive of me.
I am also under the Community Mental Health Team for other stuff but they know about my eating. Nobody has laughed at me or not believed me or not took me seriously or just told me to lose weight - but I was honest with them, and you have to try be.
It sounds like it's gotten to a serious point and I really would encourage you to speak to someone. I also have a wonderful GP who understands.
Don't let your weight hold you back so much. It's really not that important - it's you that is important, as a person, a human being, and everyone worthwhile will see that.
The guilt feelings are horrible, I get you completely, and if you can try stop and challenge them and remember that food is only food and existing for pleasure and health thats great stuff.
Take care. xx
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thanks everyone for your replies. i told my support worker and she just joked about it and said so ur still not eating when i next seen her :`( everything is going wrong in my life im sick of how i am being treated by everyone food seems like the only thing i can control anymore and even that is getting out of control i dont know what to do :(
That's awful she would do that and very unprofessional. I would ask to see someone else, who will treat you and your problems with respect. If not, can you to explain to her how this is a big thing for you?
You know food and life are completely separate things. You can fix/ignore the things in life with food. It may seem like it but the problems will still be there.
Can you try working at one thing in your life at a time? This is when it's really useful to have someone sit down and talk through your options. If it's coping with difficult feelings, try and learn to sit through them, accept them for what they are - feelings. They can't hurt you.
Dunno if I'm making sense here but do keep on going.
You said you don't know what to do. Can you put that into a sentence of what it's about?
Take care. xx
The Mole was bewitched, entranced, fascinated. By the side of the river he trotted as one trots, when very small, by the side of a man who holds one spell-bound by exciting stories; and when tired at last, he sat on the bank, while the river still chattered on to him, a babbling procession of the best stories in the world, sent from the heart of the earth to be told at last to the insatiable sea.
Wind in the Willows.
Never feel you're not worth the help just because you're "overweight" or "not skinny enough to warrant help". I have trouble with those thoughts, too, and I know how hard it is to not think that way, but if you do, you're only hurting yourself worse. No matter the problem, if you're suffering, you deserve help.
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