Encouragement to believe in recovery.

[Snow White.]

It was only five months ago that I was at my healthy goal weight, eating properly, and getting regular exercise.

My life then took a turn for the worse as I relapsed into depression and my self care flew out the window. I gained a lot of weight and now, as I slowly crawl out of my depression, I hate what I have become. I despise myself.

And I know that I have been through this & got to the other side and back to healthy, but for reasons I am not to aware of I just don't believe in my ability to get back to healthy again. Even as my binges are becoming less frequent I still don't know if I can get my weight down [and while it isn't all about weight, it is a bit part of my health].

My lack of belief in real improvement I think is a barrier to my getting the exercise I need, and I suppose as I know the change is slow and gradual that makes it seem even more hopeless.

If you can think of anything that might encourage me to believe I can do this, any kind words, any advice to remind myself it is possible, please let me know. I considered printing photos of my old before/after but just depresses me.

Thanks for reading,
Aimee xxx
(sorry, I did crosspost cause i need all the encouragement i can get)

[NeverBetter]

hugs sweetie i can see this s hard at the momment

maybe getting rid of old photos of yourself for the meantime intil you recover and it doesnt bothe you at all
try nd set yourself a reasonable but achievable goal every day if that helps
or considering getting help so u can get through this with a professional or someone who u trust and encourages you
hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[-Tough-Cookie-]

Hey Aimee,

Recovery is possible, 100% for the rest of your life recovery. So, it didnt happen the first time... some times it takes several tries but if i can get there, then you sure as heck can girl! I beleive in you Aimee. You have it within you.

x

[The One Who]

Aimee, you know within yourself that you want this (otherwise why would you be posting this?), and you know that you have the support here to help you through the ups and downs.

It won't happen overnight. If it did we would all be recovered. It does take some time, and some effort. I know that's not what you want to hear, but it's important for you not to get discouraged because of that.

Have you got a list of 'reasons to recover'? You could write them on a nice piece of paper, or in a nice book. Pictures can work, but can also be a bit more distressing if you are having a bad day. Also, at least with me, my skewed body image extends into pictures, so might not work.

[[LittleMonster]]

Aimee,

I believe in you, you did this before & you can do it again

Write a list of the positives about being healthy & a list of negatives about being caught within your ED again? And refer to it whenever you're struggling
I don't think the pictures are a good idea as said above ^

Youre amazing though, don't forget that

Love
xxx

[88shelz]

aimee, like you said you have been able to work through this before.
i believe you can do it again.
can you pin point what is triggering the depression and try to work on that - maybe once you have figured what is making you feel so low right now the eating aspects will fall into place again

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Quote:

Recovery is possible, 100% for the rest of your life recovery

^ that. It takes a lot of time to recover from EDs especially that the person has to face triggers all the time. [not sure if you get my point] anyways, you are so wonderful and strong and I KNOW you can beat this. Please please keep trying. xxx