wow, BSU, really? fucking twelve dollars to send 3 classes' worth of transcript. ridiculous. what a rip off, spent $9,000 there and you can't even send my transcript for free? just another reason i left. how am i supposed to afford anything with bullshit fees like that? that's 2 lunches.
I'm sorry I will try my very best not to worry you ever again, I know you have every right to be angry, I wish you weren't though - it scares me. I will try. I will try.
The Mole was bewitched, entranced, fascinated. By the side of the river he trotted as one trots, when very small, by the side of a man who holds one spell-bound by exciting stories; and when tired at last, he sat on the bank, while the river still chattered on to him, a babbling procession of the best stories in the world, sent from the heart of the earth to be told at last to the insatiable sea.
Wind in the Willows.
I can't believe that's the line you went down. I can't go back to that stupid competition over nothing. I know I'm a f***ing failure. I know you can cope with much more than me, you're sicker than me and yet you're actually strong enough to fight it. You're better than me in every way. I know that. I don't know why it still gets to me. I want to see you but you make me feel like an idiot.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
I miss you so much. I just wish I could have you here with me. I know it's selfish. I want to be happy - but I feel like I can't be when half of me is still with you on the other side of the world. I'm really trying to get there - but it never seems to be quick enough. Please just hold me and don't let me go. I've really never missed you this much.
You know what? For once in my goddamn fucking life I'd like to be able to not have to lie. FOR ONCE.
Just for once I'd like to not end nights shaky with tears in my eyes because I'm panicked and frightened and hating this goddamn way of relating to people.
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Reason: removed the lyrics as they could lead to tipsharing methods of self harm
I will get there. Someday
When everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
I gave everything to you.
And you betrayed me. Just like everyone else.
I'm done.
I am so disappointed in you mom, you promised us and you promised yourself that you would never let another alcoholic into our lives. The sound of your voice when you are so close to tears, pleading with him to stop yelling...it just kills me inside.
"Some people get by, with a little understanding. Some people get by, with a whole lot more."
Whinewhinewhine. Everything is so hard right now. Ithinkmydadisgoingtokillhimself. Everyone is hurting. Brooklynmightbepregnantandusinginhalants/juliegotbeatenup My family is cursed.
And I am so sick of these nightmares, please stop, the insomnia is so bad and the only nights I am able to sleep I have nightmares and I feel like my eyes are popping out of my head
you were supposed to be my friend....
but you let me down on an important day....
you've not really been in touch for months.....
then you ring/send a text to my partner.....
asking for stuff for Nat (don't even like her)....
i send you a text saying 'don't contact us anymore please'....
you reply over an hour later (wtf)....
with 'fine if thats how you want to leave it, but I've not been well, and of all people i thought you'd understand'.....
you tried to make me feel guilty, like i was in the wrong....
you ****ing bitch....i hate you...leave me alone...
i hurt myself last night because of how you made me feel....
I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy
All those times I've said I'm fine...what I meant is that I'm breaking inside. I want to talk to you so badly, to get the words out but I can't. I physically can't. Maybe that's better, for you.
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
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