Triggering (SI/Suicide) - If this is the way my life is going. I dont want to be around anymore.

[all-hope.lost-forever]

I dont know how much longer i can go on with my life, Its a neverending rollercoaster/roundabout. I'd be so much easier now to end everything. I have to face up to things. Things aint going to get better Im stuck like this for the rest of my life.

My psycologist says that talking aint going to help me because im to sensitive. Feel like i have been let down by the mental health services. Ive been struggling now since i was 8 years old and im now 25..

Ive been suicidle in the past, but nothing like this... Everything is so dark and gloomy and its been like this for awhile now. In the past i've felt suicidle but not really acted out what im feeling to die, normally cry for help. But now it all feels different. My moods are all over the place and its hard to keep myself stable.

My self harm is worse now than it has ever been.

Sorry if this doesn't make much sense. I dont always find it easy how to explain how im feeling.

[JaffaCake.]

I don't really have much to say sweetie but please know that suicide really isn't the option.
Stay safe & keep strong darling.
PM me anytime you need to<3

Milly x

[Tabilock]

there are other options to talking, , painting drawing writing. all really good outlets for emotion even if you dont realise it straight away.

I have had many issues with mental health teams but you can always ask to see someone else, dont be afraid to say this isnt working for me.

They are there to help you thats their job.

sorry if thats not been of much help but we are all here for you and we all love you.

hugs

[all-hope.lost-forever]

Thanks for replies. Im on waiting list for new psycologist.

[Sleepless123]

Thats really good.i hope that it doesnt too long and that you get someone that you feel comfortable with.Please hang on in there, dont give up and remember that you can always post here if you need more support.

[byemebyeme]

I know how it feels, you hear "it's going to get better" a million times, repeating so much there's no meaning left.
I'm still waiting for it to get better, and I know you're fighting like many of us everyday to get through, waiting for "better". Apparently it's out there somewhere, but in personal experience it's only gotten worse, so I know the feeling of being stuck. But I also know people do find "better". And if they did, we all should be able to.

I don't think I'm really being helpful here, but I just want you to know I'm here if you ever want to PM or something. You're not alone.
Keep fighting

[grizzlybear]

have not got alot at the moment, but just want you to no that it will get better even if it does not feel like it right now, so keep fighting, getting a different physcologist could be a really positive thing.

i no what it feels like when you feel suicidal but you will come out of it.

*hugs*

[all-hope.lost-forever]

Thanks for all the replies, i really do appreciate it. Im currently in hospital. Got sectioned. So wont be able to come online much, as im using my mobile. Bt thanks again guys!

[all-hope.lost-forever]

Can i have some support please,? Im not doing to good. Psychiatrist has put me on 4 different types of meds, also feels like they treating me like a kid here. Im not coping at all. Spent all day in bed. Got told off for that though. :-~