I Love You Hel, you'll be ok, you need this. you deserve this. Just be honest with them, keep holding on, as i said in my PM. You will get through this xxxx
Through the dark, a strand of light, the light continued to get bright, with it came the strength to fight (Gem)
Good luck Helen, I echo what everyone else has said. You do deserve this and I'm glad the NHS are spending the money on you. Will you know on Friday for definite?
Baby, not sadly, we're gonna be together in 11 days, it's gonna be okay, you're gonna make it through this, you have waited so long for IP & you're gonna get it.
Please try to limit how much you're b/ping, I'm so worried about you... I can't lose you...
I hope there is news on Friday & keep us up to date baby girl.
But baby, the flashbacks are not gonna go away just because you binge&purge, they're still going to be there, it's best to cope with them without hurting yourself, I know it's so hard to but hurting yourself helps nothing.
*cuddles* I'm sorry you're struggling sweety, I can understand that hearing the news must have sent a whirl-wind of emotions off in your head. Can you try and talk about what's going through your mind hun, rather than trying to run away from them through b/p? You're justified to feel however you want, it's your life this is happening too, and these are your emotions and they're valid.
Please try and stay safe and I hope you hear more for Friday, take gentle care of yourself ok?
xxxx
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
I want to cry. But I can't. I wouldn't even know where to start crying... Theres too much to mourn for.
My lost childhood, My lost sister, My lost life. The waste this past 6 years on earth has been.
My hearts palpitating, but I'm forcing myself to exercise, even though my legs feel like the are about to collapse, I'm just cleaning everything & anything.
There are things to mourn for baby, but there are also things to live & smile for.
I know you're struggling & that you're not feeling good, & you want to cry - go ahead & cry baby, let it out, let everything out, it's okay to cry. It really is okay.
*I'm holding you & I'm stroking your hair & I'm kissing your forehead, & then your cheeks, & then your nose, & then your lips, gently & softly, & I'm wrapping a blanket around you & laying down with you, holding your hand gently & stroking your hand with my thumb*
But think positively, okay you've had a crappy 6 years but think of all the many decades to come once you get this help. I'm not saying it'll be easy but I know you would work at it and one day you'll be free, free of this horrible disease
Please try and stop exercising babe, you don't need to!!
Wow reading through this thread has me sat here with total 100% admiration for you. You have clearly been through so much, and although I don't know you well I truly believe you deserve some good luck to come your way. I'm glad you are going to give it your all and I really really hope this goes the way it should. I will be thinking of you x x x
"Some days, the whole world seems upside down.
And then somehow, when you least expect it.
The world rights itself again."
"Some wars end in victory. Some wars end with a peace offering.
Some wars end in hope... But these wars are nothing.
I cannot stop binging && purging. I've been purging water all day & now more & I can't stop.
Make it stop
I want to hurt myself so it'll stop.
Help Me?
hope they'll be able to help you through.
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