I know you've done bad things.
I know I should keep away.
I know you'll only hurt me again.
But I can't just walk away.
I can't.
I love you <3
Failure should be my middle name. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- wigglemuffin - my awesome buddy
zanniie - my big sister
xgx - my cousin
We're still really stuggling. Ok, I am still really struggling with you. I am beginning to think it's a battle the wrong one will win. Please, I don't want to keep fighting You. I don't understand..
"You are imperfect and you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging." -Brene Brown
You don't know me.
And I barely know you.
But you are in my thoughts.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I actualy think i am losing my sanity. I'm really not sure i can do this.
"The body faught to survive, it evacuated toxins in any way it knew how. It made clots to stop the bleeding.Bones would find the quickest ways to heal themselves. It made scar tissue. In the face of violence towards it, it would become violent. It was amazing, yet excruciating. "
thanks for that mom..really
:|
I didn't need that....but alright then, if that's the way you want things
and you wonder why I never talk to you...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
you scared me yesturday i can see how this is ruining you!
you need to stop but i know you never will i dont want to loose you but im going to arent i one way or another
Trying to Find A way Out of this world,
No-one Knows how i feel deep down inside,
Many Nights i've Cried, Nobody Around me to Confide in
You've made your choice, that's up to you but that's not why I hate you. I hate how your treating me, like its my fault. How you wont even talk to me, like I never meant anything. Especially since you know how I feel.
The time lost being sad, Is a moment ofhappiness you'll never get back.
I wish you wouldn't see through my barrior sometimes
you know I'm not ok, and I cry because I don't know what to do when you say that
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
Omg what have I done?
I've been too busy sucking up to her that I've forgotten about YOU. I liked you, I did. But liking you is an impossible task when you have Godzilla breathing down your throat every day. I couldn't look at you without feeling guilty.
I saw your face today. You wanted to cry. Why? Did you miss me? Were you surprised? It doesn't matter anymore. But what matters is that I am SO sorry for everything I've said and done. I've treated you like shit and now it's my turn to make it up. I don't care if you still don't like me or whatever but he's out of your life and you're back in mine.
I missed you
I'm sorry
I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it.
I'm struggling, so much. I can't get the guts up to call the doctors and actually go through with securing an appointment. I can't focus upon revision because I'm going to fail- and please don't try to disagree with me. My idiocy, uselessness and stupidity is getting in the way of everything. I can't cope with being this pathetic and fat. Sometimes I just wish there was a way I could get through this but there's not- I don't see a positive one anyway. Sit with me? Help me? Please tell me what to do?
It's been too long since I saw you.
It's been well over a year.
Far, far too long.
I hope that you remember me, because I think about you every single day.
I wonder how much you've grown, and how you're getting along at school.
You were 6 the last time I saw you.
And today was your 8th birthday.
I hope it was amazing for you, my wonderful, special little cousin.
I love you always.
From, your big cousin, Mee.
Aunty,
Please, let me see him.
I miss him so very much.
I miss you too, you know?
I miss how much fun we used to have, how much we used to laugh, how similar we seemed to be. We used to bounce off each other.
But then you turned your back on me.
But this isn't fair on L. He's your son.
And I know that he loves me, he used to tell me every time he saw me.
And I love him.
Please, let me see him soon.
Please.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
i should be used to this by now. every part of what's happened is like deja vu.
i'm not surprised but i'm still hurt.
every last ditch attempt i make falls flat. every time i tell myself i won't i end up saying "one last time."
i don't know how to say no.
I'm sorry for asking that
thanks for being honest
I love you
~i'm afraid to leave you, and I know I'm going to cry
forgive me if I do something stupid the day of...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I'm dying, slowly, oh so slowly, you can't see it, no one can, but it is inevitable, yes, quite inevitable.
I'm dead on the inside already, it's beginning though, subtly to manifest itself on the outside, the things I do, what I say, everything, it's changing it all, as I die from the inside out.
