Triggering (SI) - Feeling Unsafe

[Ginger_666]

I feel unsafe tonight, for the first time in a very long time. I hate it. I am stronger than this. I'm not going to do anything but I guess I came on here and am making this post because I feel I need a little support, which for me is hard to ask for. I have always tried to do this all on my own, never show weakness, never ask for help. But tonight I just feel like maybe it's ok, just for once to get a little support and encouragment.

Please don't get mad at me for posting this.

Ginger

[I Miss You]

hi ginger((((hugs))))

i saw your post just now..and it looks like you need a freind to talk to.

dont be afriad to ask for help hun..its not a sign of weakness..

you can pm me anytime you need a freind to talk to..i also have msn if you are up for that

take care{{{{hugs}}}}

Drew

[crazykat]

Hi Ginger,
First off no one is gonna be mad at you for asking for help that is what we are here for to offer each other help and support through the difficult times. Well done for reaching out for help, I know how difficult that can be so you should be proud of yourself for asking for help. It is definetely not a sign of weakness, I think it shows strength as it shows you are willing to try to do things to help get you through and thattakes alot of courage. Was there anything in particular that you are finding difficult at the moment??? Feel free to talk to us more on here or you can PM me if you prefer. Take care of yourself
Kat xxx

[Cazki]

*Cuddles you* Im sorry your feeling unsafe. We would never be mad at you for asking for support, thats what we are here for. Im pleased that you have reached out for support and that you made a thread. Asking for support does not make you weak, but i do undertsand when you say that you like to do things by yourself never be afraid to ask for help here at ryl, id rather you asked for support than suffered in silence. Would you like to talk to us some more about what it is thats going on for you and what your finding difficult? Stay safe.

Take care all the best Ian

[Ginger_666]

I don't really know what it was last night that made me feel so unsafe. It has been a long time since I last felt so lost. I miss everyone, my best friends that have always been there for me, even though I haven't had to tell them anything, but now one is half way around the world, one is half way over the country and the other has gone. I just needed someone to talk to, I'm tired of being lonely, of trying to pretend that I'm ok, that it doesn;t hurt to spend every night alone, playing dvds over and over again just to hear another voice.
It's been so long since I really spoke to anyone and I guess now the floodgates have opened and I don't know how to close them again.

Have you ever wanted something with all your heart and had to sit back and watch while everyone else got it? How long can you sit by silently?

[Ginger_666]

It's happening all over again. I can feel myself slipping further and further. And I want to, my god do I want to. I know I can't, but that doesn't stop me wanting to every time I see my arms. My scars have faded so much now that people can look at me everyday, watch me doing things but they never notice. I thought when I got to this point it would be ok. That once I stopped having to cover my arms whenever I left my room the sence of achievement would be enough to stop me or something. But it's not.

[littlewhisper]

oh ginger i know how you feel its rubbish..
HUGS
im spiralling back down again.
:( pm me anytime ok?

[Ginger_666]

How can I be back here again? A year later but still feeling as lost and hopeless as ever. To get better I had to let go of all the people that I could talk to, the ones that understood me and now I feel so completely alone.

I tried to tell my mate but he just doesn't understand. I told him I'm feeling low and needed to be held and just said I'll see you on friday. I don't want him to understand but I need someone to.