I am eating some lunch, and have eaten every day this week. I'm trying to set myself healthy challenges instead of weight related/restricting related challenges, which is a huge improvement from last week.
i told my counselor about my eating (it is the first time i have ever told a "professional" about it) and even though i regret it now, i still know it was the right thing to do.
^That's a huge thing, well done, Stella! And hopefully in time things will turn round and you'll feel glad you did. I think it's very natural in a way to regret it straight away. But yes, well done. :)
I thought.
I have this thing you see where I just come downstairs and without eeven thinking start b/ping. So today I came down and stopped and thought first what to do - then had a really nice yummy lunch that'll keep me full and it's staying inside.
The Mole was bewitched, entranced, fascinated. By the side of the river he trotted as one trots, when very small, by the side of a man who holds one spell-bound by exciting stories; and when tired at last, he sat on the bank, while the river still chattered on to him, a babbling procession of the best stories in the world, sent from the heart of the earth to be told at last to the insatiable sea.
Wind in the Willows.
The good things dont always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things dont necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.
Nobody important? Blimey, thats amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space Ive never met anyone who wasnt important before.
If its time to go, remember what youre leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.
I had something I'd planned to have for tea at lunch because there was nothing else for me to eat. And I'm going out to buy some food for me so that I don't have no tea or b/p. :)
Good job,Katie.Even though you don't belive me,you're strong and amazing.
You can buy me with a coffee,I'm so cheap. Got bitten fingernails&a head full of past;Got a broken heart&your name on my cast.
&&I wanted her to tell me that she will never wake me.
After days of near starvation I have eaten something closer to *properly* to line my stomach. It was really hard but I did it. I'm not hungry, and damn it feels good.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
Stepping on the scales this morning my weight appeared to have gone up a scary amount. I am allowing myself to consider the possibility that this a fluke because it doesn't make sense with my intake and allowed myself to eat regardless.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
I ate really varied and healthy on holiday and did some good exercise.
The Mole was bewitched, entranced, fascinated. By the side of the river he trotted as one trots, when very small, by the side of a man who holds one spell-bound by exciting stories; and when tired at last, he sat on the bank, while the river still chattered on to him, a babbling procession of the best stories in the world, sent from the heart of the earth to be told at last to the insatiable sea.
Wind in the Willows.
