Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Soon to be Homeless, Currently Breaking Down
My mother's husband kicked me out a few weeks ago, I was able to get him to agree to let me stay until March 1st. I now have just days til I have to leave. My mother was saying she would get him to let me stay until May, but now I have until March 17th (St. Patty's Day) to get out of the house.
I just obtained my first job since 2008 and have not yet received my first paycheck. I have no money and nowhere to go. I tried to get an apartment but they said that I don't make enough money and would need a co-signer. I don't know anyone with good credit besides my boyfriend's parents and Im not about to ask them. I also would only be able to pay my bills if I did get the apartment. I wouldn't have enough money to eat.
I also have a dog with me, who I am not going to give up. I'd give my life for this dog.
I just don't know what to do. My weeks are full and I don't have the time, money, or patience for all of this. I go to school (college) Mon, Wed, Friday. I go to work Tues, Thurs. I have church on Sundays and Saturdays are my only free days to do homework and laundry.
I have no friends to stay with.
I fear that I am going to fall right back into the depression I fought so hard to get out of. The longer I am in this stress mess, the more I feel the urges, the harder it gets to resist them. I'm so scared. I'm in bad shape already and I'm afraid that I'm not going to be able to take it. I fear because I can feel myself breaking apart. I want to self harm, but I don't. I just want everything to be okay. :c rying:
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
Are there any emergency shelters and/or benefits you could apply for?
Perhaps your doc/school couns. may know of something...not sure who you can ctc there for help...
Is there no way to get him to allow you to remain? Any sort of compromise that can be agreed to?? Will your mom not step in to help you stay?
My mother just informed me today that the house is being foreclosed on, she and her husband are going to be living out of their RV at an RV park. There is no room there for me. I just got word tonight that we will all have to be gone by March 17th. There are no shelters here that allow dogs. I cannot give up my dog. If it weren't for my dog, I wouldn't be alive today. Counseling costs money, I do not have any money. I'm doing everything I can to try and find a place.
It is taking every ounce of energy within me to keep from breaking. It's so hard... No one understands what I'm going through and all I want right now is for someone, anyone, to just hold me while I cry. I wish I knew if everything was going to be alright....
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
Thats hard hun. You say you have a boyfriend. Where does he live? Could you stay with him?
I know I was lucky and it may not be the same for you but when I was kicked out by my dad ME AND MY DOG went to live with my boyfriend and his parents, i've been there over a year now and its working out ok.
Also some flats will take dogs, jst look around. You would be entitled to benefits etc to help with rent and bills so it might not turn out as bad as expected. Though I know it is a pain to sort out. Good luck
I asked my boyfriend, he assures me that his family will not allow it. They have firm beliefs that a man and woman should not live together before marriage, regardless of the situation. I asked my mom to take me to get some help from this place that could help me, but there is a wait and I guess it's a five year wait. I don't have that kind of time. I am doing everything I can think of, but running out of options and time...
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
Will they not allow it even if you sleep in a different room from him? or on the sofa? I do think that is a little harsh if you will be homeless but i suppose you have to respect their wishes.
I guess then the only other suggestion I had wouldn't work, get your boyf to move into a flat with you and help with the rent. Nevermind
Don't know what to suggest really hun. If the worst comes to the worst could you go to a shelter and a family member look after your dog for a while and you could visit whenever you want and get him/her back when you get more settled?
lol. haha. No, actually the joke made me laugh. I needed that, thank you.
I tried to get him to move into somewhere with me, but he says his parents would disown him because we are not married. Neither of us is ready to be married just yet either. He says that they also would not be okay if we lived together in separate rooms.
My aunt said that I could stay with her, but she lives two cities over and I'd have no transportation to or from school or work. So I have something to consider, but it wouldn't work out so well without transportation.
Im trying really hard to find some place, anyplace I could go. I wish that homeless shelters allowed dogs. Well, if worse comes to worse I may just have to go, but until that time I'm going to try and keep my head above the water.
Any other suggestions are greatly appreciated. Thank you so much.
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
Is there any social housing there? I'm not sure how it works in the USA. But is there anythign the local authority would/could do?
Would your parents look after your dog while you got yourself settled somewhere? I know how important pets can be and I'd be the same if I had to move I would NOt give up my cats for anything.
I want to kiss the bottom of the ocean before I burst through its surface into the sunlight, otherwise I will always be wondering about what was left unseen at the bottom
i'm tired of chasing my dreams. i'm just gonna ask where they're going, and hook up with them later.
There are places called homeless shelters, but the only ones I could find only accept families who are living on the streets, not people who are living at home about to be on the street. It's not so much the U.S. as it is the city I'm in, I know this because I stayed in Flint, Mi, USA a few years ago with a friend without any pets and wound up homeless and living in a hospital --that was also treating me for SI-- until my family came and took me home. It was frightening and I couldn't leave the building, but they took good care of me. GOOD NEWS
I just got word tonight that my family is getting an extension on the house and my mom said that I do not have to leave until they do, which is September. I am so relieved. I will have to work extra hard now so that I won't be homeless. So my plan now is to work throughout the summer and find a place, if at all possible. Thank you so much everyone for being here when I needed someone. Thank you so so much! ((((((HUGS))))))
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
You can put an add in some newspaper to find someone to share the apartment with you, to help with the bills and food
I write this alone on my bed; I've poisoned every room in the house; The place is quiet and so alone; Pretend there's something worth waiting for; There's nothing nice in my head The adult world took it all away; Wake up with same spit in my mouth; Cannot tell if it is real or not; I try and walk in a straight line An imitation of dignity- MSP - From despair to Where
I am human and I need to be loved just like everybody else does - The Smiths How Soon is Now
I'm glad you have some relief from this stress for the time being.
I agree with the above and put an add in papers and hops to try find a housemate or a roomin shared house that'll take you and your dog.
I want to kiss the bottom of the ocean before I burst through its surface into the sunlight, otherwise I will always be wondering about what was left unseen at the bottom
i'm tired of chasing my dreams. i'm just gonna ask where they're going, and hook up with them later.
I will do that. I plan to build up my finances a little bit, then I am going to post an ad in the paper, on my school website, maybe a flier, and I am also considering a public website. I have until September now, but I am going to continue to look because the sooner I can find a place, the sooner I can feel safe. I need to feel safe and secure more than anything right now. It scares me, but knowing I have six months gives quite a relief.
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
