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Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - i need to know...
Okay, so a few days ago i had unprotected sex. I talked to my nurse about it, and she seemed to think it was unconsented sex...but im not sure, and that has scared me.
This may trigger, so please be careful...
I invited this boy round my house, as friends, i had no intention of doing anything sexual with him, but he must have had every intention.
We went upstairs to my bedroom. I intended just to lay, cuddle, and chat, not sex. He undid my bra whilst we were kissing, that made me feel uncomfortable.
Then he started going 'down there' i said i didnt want to go that far, and he said okay, but kept on going there anyway. all the time whilst we were having sex, i was thinking how long is this going to last, im not enjoying this, and want it to stop, but im just not assertive enough to say no. i kept on looking at the clock, and wanted it to be over.
why couldnt i say no? i hate my lack of self confidence.
was this "unconsented sex"?
i just need to know, its on my mind now.
my nurse thinks it is and she said, as a professional, i need to tell you you can take this further if youd like, and i'll help you do it (meaning report him) but i cant.
please help.
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