Severely Triggering (ED) - Some Encouragement Please??
Hi guys,
Im a bit upset and need some support.
I went to see my therapist at the local AMHT and eating came up. She said she had called the ED team to find out what was going on as i had my assessment back in April and still havent gotten any support.
She said that im still on the waiting list but im probably not going to be seen for a long time still, quite possibly mid to late 2010.
She said she knew and could see i wasnt doing well but to keep holding on but i feel like giving up. i feel like not bothering and giving my spot to someone else. i dont feel ill enough, i cant see that i am ill. i just have weird eating and maybe im being OTT. maybe its just all in my head.
Im really emotional right now, which i did not need as i have a major exam on wednesday. Im so exhausted too, the last few weeks have been manic.
Thankyou in advance, i do appreciate all the replies and support i get :)
xxx
Through the dark, a strand of light, the light continued to get bright, with it came the strength to fight (Gem)
you are one of the most amazing & beautful girls i know.
Which is why it hurts to see how much you are hurting.
You really really need this help, keep pushing & pushing & also join any free councelling or group therapy you can while youre waiting.
i hate the nhs for things like this but dont be discouraged, you are very ill & this kind of thing makes you feel you arent illl enough.
you are.
& if youre waiting for your ED to tell you are, its NEVER going to happen.
I can promise you that.
i love you
please dont give up.
jade
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Your mind fogs up, you open your eyes and you are surrounded,,, chained to what you can't see,,, only sense. I'm choking when I try to inhale. My throat constricts, I can't swallow,
I think I bit off more than I could chew
thankyou Jadeyface.
its so damn hard to keep going...I want to get rid of this but then i dont see the point and i dont feel like im ill enough or even ill at all and then...i dont know. this is driving me crazy.
Through the dark, a strand of light, the light continued to get bright, with it came the strength to fight (Gem)
That is absolutely ridiculous that you have to wait so long for support! (I'm not a big fan of the way the UK handles mental health problems, way too much waiting it seems.)
Anyways, I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I know how it feels to not feel ill enough, but you really are. Part of your disorder is being unable to see there is a problem.
You need to keep fighting! Find yourself as much support as you can while you are waiting for the help. Join some groups at your peer support center, keep seeing your therapist, and just keep reaching out for help. Because you need and deserve help. And we are always here for you, of course <3
Take care honey.
Jess x
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
Gem, stay strong, there are so many people that care about you and want to see you better!
your more than this, and i know its hard to see through some times, but you need it, not just to be healthy, but to be able to be yourself and enjoy your life to its full extent, and you'll see that if you just keep soldiering on.
i promise you it will be worth it.
your beautiful, and caring and i'd hate for anything to ever happen to you.
you've always been there, i hope you can do this.
infact no, i know you can do this,
your strong and all you need to do is to believe in yourself and push for everything you need, and i know the waiting lists are shitty, but something is better than nothing.
Im just emotional and exhausted right now, exam day tomorrow and then after that i have one more on the 22nd so hopefully i will relax a bit after that.
There is no way i could afford private treatment. I have no money as it is, i couldnt afford it. I did look into it a couple of years ago but now i can barely pay my rent so thats a no go.
Through the dark, a strand of light, the light continued to get bright, with it came the strength to fight (Gem)
You obviously are ill enough otherwise they wouldn't think that you need the support. Please don't give up your place. I'm sorry to hear that you have to wait this long but at least there is help on the way even if it is a while into the future yet.
Hang in there hon. We're all here for you.
xx
thankyou Jadeyface. 
